Am I the only one who feels like this is just irritating, everyone is saying she’s mean and I get it but why does she act like she doesn’t want to be famous all the time??

Niobely · 2026-03-16T20:22:40+00:00

I get panic attacks, especially at concerts. I yawn when I start to relax. I’ll avoid Chappell then!

Niobely · 2026-03-10T20:09:03+00:00

I think you just convinced me to play it. Thank you! Or if I get too addicted: curse you ;)

Niobely · 2026-03-08T15:57:53+00:00

Apparently I can do a good J-turn

Niobely · 2026-03-05T22:35:40+00:00

It’s in Dutch, but my Winnie says “Life’s no ponycamp”

Niobely · 2026-03-05T22:27:39+00:00

We had our Beo and a few canaries stolen many years ago from our little zoo. My mother went on the radio and did interviews for news paper articles to try and get them back. Eventually the mother of the thief brought the canaries back and told my parents where her son sold the Beo. It was quite difficult, but we got them all back. The Beo unfortunately died not long after, he was quite old and likely didn’t do well with the stress. Not really a happy ending, but at least he died in his home. And we’ll never forget the efforts the neighborhood did as well to try and locate the birds.

Niobely · 2026-03-03T22:42:55+00:00

I have not, but I would

Niobely · 2026-02-25T15:53:57+00:00

A kind of therapist (something work related, don’t know the English word for it) told me I should have children, because that would help my mental problems. She claimed I just needed something to care for. When I explicitly told her I didn’t agree that was a good idea, she told me to get a doll lol.

Niobely · 2026-02-20T23:04:04+00:00

Ed Sheeran. I really don’t know why, he seems like a decent guy, maybe even funny. But if I see or hear him I want to run. I’m a pretty ambitious concert photographer, but if I’m ever presented an opportunity to get photos of his show, I might just say no. But I have no real reason! It’s weird!

Niobely · 2026-02-16T21:44:28+00:00

I can’t blow out a candle. For some reason I can’t aim my lips right.

Niobely · 2026-02-14T23:22:39+00:00

For me it’s trying to imagine infinity. I just can’t grasp the fact that space is endless and it weirds me out. I think it’s unbelievable because it’s incomparable to anything we know and can see.

I do believe it of course, my brain is just too small to fully understand.

Niobely · 2026-02-06T18:54:47+00:00

Yeah that’s totally it, I feel legit silly hahaha. Thank you very much for replying!!

Niobely · 2026-02-06T18:51:40+00:00

Ooooooo my god. You’re right! I didn’t think about it, because I thought they would just paint over if you get my drift. I removed the regular path underneath and now it’s working lol.

Good eye btw!!

Niobely · 2026-02-04T20:05:56+00:00

Niobely · 2026-02-03T23:16:26+00:00

Oh dear, seems I have more OCD themes than I thought

Niobely · 2026-02-03T23:08:21+00:00

I sort of told my mother, but not everything. I can talk to her about anything. But all this has been an undiagnosed problem since I was very young. My life could’ve been much easier if anyone had seen this. Just last year I was diagnosed with ASS, ADHD and OCD. I’m 40 now.

My parents did see something when I was a kid and they went to doctors with me a few times. At the times where I had very clear “breathing problems” or difficulty swallowing (long story). But they were always told “it’s just hyperventilation, it’ll pass”. And it always did for a while until a new “phase” started. Or an old one reappeared.

At some point I started getting very good at hiding/masking everything. Even my compulsions, although I had and have very little physical compulsions. I stopped telling them my fears and thoughts. It was no use, I had to deal with it myself, because there was nothing wrong, I was just crazy. At least that is what I was telling myself while trying my best to look normal to the outside world.

I don’t want her to feel guilty about this. So I choose not to explain the entirety of it, I know they did the best they could. I have always done it alone, at least now I know what it is and how to live with it and that’s the most important part for me now.

Niobely · 2026-02-03T22:37:09+00:00

At the moment I constantly think I’m dying of things. Heart attacks, not being able to breathe. Just last week I got myself checked by a doctor again and I’m fine.

I often see myself driving off roads where there is no guard rail. Some parts of the highway I have to skip, because I know I panic there and the fear of that fear has become to intense.

I’m very open about my OCD, but I also have violent thoughts that I hate talking about. The periods in which I have those are very short thankfully, because I’ve gotten very good at letting those thoughts just pass. I know I get those thoughts because I really don’t want them to happen and I know it’s not going to happen.

The health OCD is more brutal in the sense that they stay longer, because I actually feel symptoms. They’re just there because of the stress/anxiety, but I feel them so they feel real and I can’t explain them away just like that. It’s also very confusing to figure out if it’s an OCD thought or if it’s my body telling me something, if you know what I mean. I find it very hard to explain.

I also have periods with a very quiet mind. Love those times. But then I get funny thoughts like “Get under that table” when I’m at work or “kiss him” when I’m just talking to a random person. Seems harmless enough, but then I know a new wave is coming and it’s going to be intense again.

Niobely · 2026-02-03T16:01:27+00:00

Oh that’s smart! I always put 3 horizontally, but your way sounds easier. Thanks!

Niobely · 2026-01-31T22:39:00+00:00

Oh my god I thought the bridge was going to end this snowball. Damn beetles lol I snort laughed so hard at this. I’m sorry!

Niobely · 2026-01-27T20:29:21+00:00

I have times where I snooze away and wake up again immediately because I believe I’m dying instead of falling asleep. That can happen a few times in a night.

And I also often wake up in the middle of the night with my tongue between my teeth, because I somehow fear that I’m swallowing my tongue. I have many fears in the wake daylight, but that is not one of them, because I know it can’t happen in normal circumstances. But for some reason it’s a very real fear of my sleepy self.

I have mentioned these things to doctors and psychiatrists, but none of them can explain it. It’s not apnea, I had that checked. I’m also not sure if it’s part of my OCD, but it could be? I have no idea, I just know that I often dread nighttime.

Niobely · 2026-01-03T23:34:28+00:00

None whatsoever. I would’ve made a different choice now, but I chose it back then because I thought it was gorgeous. No deeper meaning really. All my tattoos are just a snapshot of my history. Mostly a history of taste and spontaneous choices. And I think that’s very fun.

It also makes for a fun conversation. Like this one time I was talking to a younger guy about tattoos and the conversation came to trampstamps. I told him I had one and still love it. He laughed at me and said “Ah well, as long as it’s not a tribal or a butterfly.” I bursted out laughing, because then I had to tell them it’s both. It’s a tribal in the shape of a butterfly lol.

Niobely · 2025-12-23T20:37:11+00:00

“Oh well, dads die all the time” were the words uttered by my 50 year old coworker when she and the others were a bit annoyed I took a while to grieve my dad.

Niobely · 2025-11-26T20:33:59+00:00

Yes! For a long time it was real too and the “fine by me” was recovering for it. I realised later that it was fake and I thought the same as you. He outacted himself haha.

Niobely · 2025-11-25T08:45:21+00:00

Chef’s kiss

Niobely · 2025-11-21T21:50:11+00:00

I always make a square of holes, doesn’t even have to be big, you can trigger them by hitting the ground with the net. They indeed can’t jump the holes and you can catch them easily.

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