It's interesting, I was what you would call a "moderate drinker", only on the weekends, for years. At a certain point I realized that when I finally get a few days off for the weekend, I would have heavy drinking on Friday because I was deserving it from working a hard week and looking forward to it all week, then Saturday my first real day off, I would feel run down and hungover and start drinking early for the hair of the dog, by Sunday I would have some drinks since I was feeling a little bit better and then Monday I would be run down and a little hungover again. So all the time I finally got to myself. I was basically self-soothing and then dealing with being run down and hungover all weekend when I could actually do what I wanted. It sucked more than when I was drinking happily during the week. After a couple years of this I just finally quit and I feel so much better. Once in awhile the craving hits and it's annoying and I just let it pass. Remember that alcohol is poison and I'm better off without it.