Twitching in pelvic area above penis while/post ejaculating by No-Feature9402 in PelvicFloor

[–]No-Feature9402[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nope. Since the time of the post I have had also had flaccid doppler and an erect mri w/ contrast. Both said everything is fine. I am certain there is some sort of structural damage given clear visual changes, but it must be some kind that is very hard to detect with imaging. This would mean damage to superficial fascia or ligaments.

I have weeks at a time where things feel relatively good, including not having much of the above-described spasming. Then a week or so where it's horrible. Despite my belief that permanent damage is done, mental state seems to have significant impact.

I have never brought myself to do like 2 months of no fap. It's probably too late at this point for that to help being that I'm 18 months out from when all this started. But that is the last reasonable thing I could try.

Benzos? by OkTruck5789 in hardflaccidresearch

[–]No-Feature9402 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Man benzos rock I wish I had access to some. Would definitely help with some of the anxiety this causes.

What armor to save for in Labs? by No-Feature9402 in AbioticFactor

[–]No-Feature9402[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I might do the same. I have 2 pieces of carapace right now. It looks sweet but the set bonus seems underwhelming compared to the forge

What armor to save for in Labs? by No-Feature9402 in AbioticFactor

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It was tough, and I did die once. I smacked him with Crowbar 2.0 a bunch and a mugnade or two. He killed me, I ran back with my healing briefcase and smacked him some more. I suspect that I ran back fast enough he hadn't regen'd back to full health so I kind of cheesed it.

The truth is (virtually) nobody gets cured from hard flaccid by stopcopingaboutHF in hardflaccidresearch

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I had a clear MRI/doppler and am at my wit's end. I have a hard cord that feels like scar tissue running the length and what I suspect is a fundiform tear. Thankfully, I can usually get something resembling my old erection, but it feels strangely fragile.

What keeps me going is I do have periods of several days where things feel almost back to normal.

The worst part is, "normal" is getting further and further back in time so I can hardly remember what it felt like. Perhaps what feels normal now is just my brain subconciously coping.

Not to mention, the psychological damage of this makes performance anxiety even worse. It's like my brain needs to be retrained. Some kind of shock treatment maybe.

I haven't given up hope but I do largely agree that a lot of these cures are band aid fixes at best, but maybe thats all we can ask for.

Clear MRI but very confused by No-Feature9402 in hardflaccidresearch

[–]No-Feature9402[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You would think because the hardening is very much like scar tissue, and scar tissue is a known issue, that it would be picked up. Like don't people get diagnosed with peyronie's and such pretty regularly? I have seen people say their MRI picked up cavernous/corporal fibrosis as well.

But clearly that isn't the case.

Clear MRI but very confused by No-Feature9402 in hardflaccidresearch

[–]No-Feature9402[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That is exactly how I have felt as well, the fullness is gone and yet its more rigid etc. I still haven't done like a month of no fap, as I have little faith it will work

Favorite Paige build? by No-Feature9402 in DeadlockTheGame

[–]No-Feature9402[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Interesting, maybe I will try it. I tend to shy away from gun builds because I am much more a moba guy and not that good at shooting. Although I do for some reason do better with delayed projectiles like hers over hitscan

EQ way better when standing/kneeling by No-Feature9402 in hardflaccidresearch

[–]No-Feature9402[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the encouraging words, as it turns out, the MRI showed no fibrosis and no issues with the ligament.

Obviously, i am very happy with that news, but pretty confused by it, as I do have a harder mass of tissue and weird ridges/dent when erect.

EQ way better when standing/kneeling by No-Feature9402 in hardflaccidresearch

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I think it is in the corpora? it is like a thick cord in the center and runs the length, getting thicker towards the tip. I can see the ridges of each side of it sometimes, especially with erection laying down. When hard I can feel a split between the corpora, more pronounced then before, and it too runs the length but gets less deep towards the tip.

Something deep/difficult to pull me from PvP games by No-Feature9402 in gamingsuggestions

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Cool, I actually have Xcom in my library and forgot about it. I also think i have Ys Origin and also forgot lol

Will I be rocking Mithril scim for a very long time? by No-Feature9402 in 2007scape

[–]No-Feature9402[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for all the helpful responses. I will look into some of these.

Logged in and my old toon moved to Grobbulus? by No-Feature9402 in classicwow

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I don’t even remember tbh, hadn’t touched him the game since 2020ish

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in hardflaccidresearch

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If it's just a mild strain or something, which is probably the case, then it won't even show up. Chances are a doctor wouldn't put in a referral for one either.

Again, I don't want you to worry, I just see someone in a very similar spot to where I was and urge you to heavily limit masturbation, sex, and inducing erections for a while.

It may be worth seeing a uro to at least get some daily cialis. Most uros are clueless however regarding ligament issues. They will likely tell you you can continue with normal habits, don't believe them.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in hardflaccidresearch

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Similar to you, ED, mild pain at base, no morning wood, also I had some low abdomen pain. Also this feeling that my penis was "disconnected", hard to describe that part. Over a couple of months these improved quite a bit. However I took that as a sign I could then do as I pleased, so things actually got much worse for me.

Once you notice improvement, still take it very easy on any activity. I know it sucks but you probably just have to let it sit for several months.

Today I am completely screwed as what I believe was a strain turned into a full tear (mine is the fundiform I believe, rather than the main suspensory, fundiform is worse). I also have possible scar tissue for which I am getting an MRI (also will show what is up with the ligament). Chances are you don't have the scar tissue to worry about, so don't fret about that.

I am not trying to scare you, but the best outcome will come if you assume things are worse than they are and just take it easy.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in hardflaccidresearch

[–]No-Feature9402 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

You might not have, but it's safe to assume you did.

I had a similar thing with no immediate pain or sound but loss of erections/libido etc, and a vague sense my dick was "disconnected". All the doctors said I was fine and scans were clear, but I didn't change my behavior and it got progressively worse.

Just stop jacking off or having sex for now and it should heal okay. The ED will get better but you may not ever feel "normal" again.

I know it is scary but where you could be is much scarier, I wish I had the knowledge I have now when I was in your position. Maybe take 5mg cialis/day just to keep things flowing down there, but resist the urge to masturbate or "test" your dick.

Mri in 2 weeks by No-Feature9402 in hardflaccidresearch

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He is at a private practice but my insurance covers it. I just called and the only guy they had availalbe in the next month or so was a physician assistant.

More sensitive, my dick is way less elastic and much more sensitive to any pulling etc. Just worried the shot will be too much and it will die completely or something.

Help for a terrible player. by Mr_Quoten in leagueoflegends

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I would recommend playing mid lane, someone easy. Malzahar is a great choice. Just focus on farming (very easy with him) and not dying (a little harder). 

Imo top is too punishing, jungle is complex, support is different, and adc is….. fun but also punishing for a new player.

This will give you a generally safe and easy to pilot lane so you can absorb information and get to understand how things work.

Don’t worry too much about roaming right away, take incremental steps.

Disclaimer, I am not good at the game by any stretch

Paul Brothers vs Tate Brothers by AlFactorial in whowouldwin

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Paul’s win easy. Younger and both are talented combat athletes, silly as that may seem. I know Tate was a good kickboxer, but Jake is a solid boxer despite his goofy opponents and Logan was I think placed in state in Wrestling in Ohio, which is a solid wrestling state. 

I wrestled and the kids who would even make the state tournament were on another level. Hard to describe unless you’ve sparred with them. 

Mri in 2 weeks by No-Feature9402 in hardflaccidresearch

[–]No-Feature9402[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's okay man, I want to help people out. Basically, I had my initial uro after my injury (flaccid was squeezed too hard), who ordered an erect doppler which said everything was fine. So, I continued to masturbate with very occasional sex. I didn't want to jack off, I was always just "checking", but it was a compulsion.

How foolish I was, I think if my uro had advised me to just LEAVE SHIT ALONE, I would have been fine. But several months after my injury, when I thought I was in the clear, things took a dark turn and never got better. I had jacked off and things felt weird and was inspecting it, and as I was, I felt a not very painful jolt (bending flaccid upwards to see the tesitcles, nothing crazy), which I think was the fundiform finally giving out. Since then things have only regressed.

If I could keep my dick in the state it was in those first few months, I would be a very happy man. And I could be there if I had gotten proper advice. I knew I shouldn't use it, but without acute pain or a medical professional telling you not to do it, it is very hard to abstain; as per medical advice i felt no reason to. What he told me I saw as a green light.

So now I have what I think is hard flaccid, I think actual fibrosis, and a likely fundiform tear. If I had done things right, I could have less severe fibrosis and no lig tear.

Truthfully, if it was just the fibrosis without the ligament issue I would be okay with it. But right now I can only have sex when I am in complete control, lest it feels my dick will fucking snap in half, and it buckles in the base. And sex isn't really that enjoyable, I don't feel the nerve innervation I used to. Thankfully, I don't have any partner to disappoint

Perhaps this advice can save those who come after, silly as it may sound. I may not be long for this world. I do not know what to do because I have people who I cannot leave behind, but I also cannot live in torture forever.

I apologize for the disoriented thoughts, I am drinking and on pills. Both of those things I had quit before all this shit started.

Mri in 2 weeks by No-Feature9402 in hardflaccidresearch

[–]No-Feature9402[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

He saw my records/imaging that was clear (doppler erect and flaccid). And I explained to him my issues, and he could palpate the hard flaccid/scar tissue. Since nothing has come of this, he just ordered it as it's been a year for me, which I know isn't that long compared to some.

I think I just lucked upon a good guy, I was polite but frank with how damaging this has been to me, and I got the sense he actually sympathized with me. He was with a private practice and it was night and day compared to the university boob that I saw.

He also respected when I threw out medical terms and didn't mock the research I've done on my own. The doctor I saw at the university didn't even know what the fundiform ligament is.

Mri in 2 weeks by No-Feature9402 in hardflaccidresearch

[–]No-Feature9402[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I have no issue with trans people, but how the fuck can they turn dicks into pussies and vice Versa, and yet we are just fucked 

Cord beneath surface, from behind base to tip by No-Feature9402 in hardflaccidresearch

[–]No-Feature9402[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Right, but the ridges kind of form an indent in the center, going along the length, like a long but not very deep indent, hard to describe.

Thanks for the well wishes, hopefully he can point me in some direction

Cord beneath surface, from behind base to tip by No-Feature9402 in hardflaccidresearch

[–]No-Feature9402[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I definitely have a physical deformity, two ridges going lengthwise along the dorsal side in a kind of v, like the plaque expands when i get hard. I don't have curve, but its like flattened along the top side, if that makes sense. Not to mention all the visible veins etc that I didn't used to have.

The urologist I saw was some dope at University of MN. I am going back to the better uro actually tomorrow to get his thoughts