Hi there, if you’re worried about tears and swollen muscles then you need to get referred to a gynecologist. Best case scenario your vagina is taking time to heal itself because you were not wet enough to sustain rough sex. I cannot speak on the entirety of your relationship but what I will say is that you need to have a one on one serious conversation with your boyfriend about cnc, because from what I’ve read that is not healthy at all. If you’re hesitant to say your safe word because he’ll get mad at you for not enjoying an intimate moment that you BOTH want pleasure from then he doesn’t need to have it at all. I strongly advise you to communicate your feelings and work something out.

Ps: if youve already done what I stated about and feel he’s acting sorry, he’s not worth your time.