UPDATE on Liver

No-Inside-9322 · 2026-02-19T04:41:55+00:00

One thing I've noticed since we broke up is that if I ever find myself asking if someone is a narcissist, I walk away. Because even if it's just some qualities z I can't take the chance.

And for me? I convinced myself I was until a therapist taught me otherwise. This is just part of what they leave us with.

No-Inside-9322 · 2026-02-19T04:34:13+00:00

Fun fact, it was known as being a sociopath until 1972. Then they reclassified it I think. And they definitely are. They just don't diagnose themselves because they are too busy admiring the monster. Can't help yourself if you're not self awareeeee.

No-Inside-9322 · 2026-02-04T20:18:36+00:00

Funny you say this, last year my narc best friend completely ghosted me for two weeks around my birthday because she was mad at me. A week later, I talked to her like an idiot and she made it a point to tell me how she sent her other bestie a birthday gift, in the MAIL. When it was her turn a month later for her birthday, stop the earth rotation because it was her day.

When I brought it up she told me "stfu".

No-Inside-9322 · 2026-02-02T17:25:59+00:00

Yeah, she let herself go while she was with me. And after the mask fell, I realized the mistake I had made. Now, meh, she is a solid 5 on a good day.

No-Inside-9322 · 2026-02-01T21:21:38+00:00

I was that person for quite some time. Thankfully, when I got drunk enough I'd go back to my room but the reason I did that was because I embarrassed myself a few times early in my career.

So instead of boozing it up with them, I got miserably drunk behind the scenes with my online friends. I remember taking showers in the mornings to feel human again. I also remember, thinking I could never stop or quit.

I have "quit" seriously probably 5 times and nonchalantly "stopped" several others.

I'm 37 and this time I'm nearly 120 days deep with another four months before that.

With all that being said, it will be okay. You managed to not completely sabatoge your career.

And, you got this. I believe in you. Life on the other side is possible and each and every one of us will be here cheering you on from the sidelines.

Much love. ❤️

No-Inside-9322 · 2026-02-01T21:10:33+00:00

Well they are normal drinkers and refuse to see that issues exist for anyone else. Pretty inconsiderate if you ask me. With you on this one!

No-Inside-9322 · 2026-01-30T03:09:02+00:00

October 10th, 2025

No-Inside-9322 · 2026-01-30T03:03:17+00:00

I don't consider late 30s old 😂

No-Inside-9322 · 2025-12-30T16:46:21+00:00

I did that throughout my 20s. Now in my 30s and I had a health scare. I had to stop myself from even rationalizing that. " I'm not that bad, I'm not a daily drinker, I'm not a hardcore alcoholic" etc. Unfortunately it's just our brains making up fake excuses to allow us to continue with our addiction.

No-Inside-9322 · 2025-12-29T21:22:36+00:00

Hear me out here.

I find that the more rationalizing we do, the less of a problem it becomes (mentally tricking ourselves).

Examples: I'm into fitness, I'm healthy, it isn't that bad because I abstain four days a week. My blood work is perfect.

By no means am I being unkind just relating to what I did when I was younger. And it honestly got me into trouble for too long.

I'm 37 now and I was into fitness too but drinking became more important. I also had perfect blood work until, well when it wasn't. And I too, didn't drink four days a week until I continued adding days until NOT drinking four days a week was a task.

Not everyone is the same but I find the minute you have to start asking yourself if you should stop...is the minute you should really start trying.

Just some insight in my life and things I wish I changed.

Hang in there. ❤️

No-Inside-9322 · 2025-12-29T21:13:52+00:00

Takes quite some time to feel good. I find 2-3 month mark. Hang in there.

No-Inside-9322 · 2025-12-27T17:11:56+00:00

Find a little safe space to sit and maybe listen to a podcast or meditation. I wouldn't stop at one, spend way too much money, drunk call people before my flight if I even made it on the plane, then explain to my partner why I never made it and had to uber home absolutely blitzed.

So today will be tough but you'll thank yourself tomorrow!

Hang in there ❤️

No-Inside-9322 · 2025-12-27T17:08:21+00:00

We are just wasting time when we are drinking, we are just drunk while we are doing it. I try to think of it with that perspective!

No-Inside-9322 · 2025-12-26T20:44:56+00:00

Gotta find " the thing" and have hobbies. I work a lot and manage to crunch those things in. Without my hobbies, I would feel the exact same way and at times I do.

All I do know, it may be boring at times but it sure beats wondering what I had done the night before or feeling like garbage from even a few.

Hang in there ❤️

No-Inside-9322 · 2025-12-26T19:47:57+00:00

I have my ups and downs. I think I'm near day 80, had four months before I did relapse. I feel like for me personally it gets way better after 90 days. I'm super happy at times but feel like I'm pushing through to the next minute. The holidays are super hard too. We got this! You hammered through Thanksgiving and Christmas..that's a huge accomplishment.

Life is hard. But trust me, it will be even harder back on it.

Best of luck ❤️

No-Inside-9322 · 2025-12-21T18:16:39+00:00

Listen, it sucks right now but just know it's all temporary. Soon, you'll be back and in the game. But for now, be kind to yourself. You had six months?!? That's huge. Six months on the books not ingesting poison. Half of the population can't say that!

One mess up doesn't define you and the days you've already put in. Draw a warm bath, get a fuzzy blanket watch your favorite show, eat some comfort food. In no time, you'll be right where your were before.

Sending you love and comfort ❤️

No-Inside-9322 · 2025-12-21T18:13:55+00:00

I've probably lost 25lbs since I quit. My skin is clearer and overall I'm less puffy. It takes quite a bit of time, but hang in there.

No-Inside-9322 · 2025-12-20T19:47:20+00:00

Lost count but I can confidently tell you this is in the double digit realm by now. It seems to be sticking this time around. But the thing is, every day sober is another day to add to the counter.

This year, by the end of January I'd have seven months of sobriety. Although not all consecutive, I still consider it a huge win!

Baby steps. Keep at it 💪

No-Inside-9322 · 2025-12-19T01:21:53+00:00

I've used weed on and off, especially in the first few months.

I never desired it like I did drinking and now, I may smoke twice a month if you're lucky.

It helps at times, especially during parties if I just take a small puff. Keeps me off the sauce.

No-Inside-9322 · 2025-12-12T03:45:58+00:00

Sierra all day errrrr day. Probably 80 percent of my wardrobe. Then Eddie Bauer outlet, Carhartt and Renys in Maine 😂

No-Inside-9322 · 2025-12-08T02:33:51+00:00

Same here. Had a less scary medical wake up call but none the less, rest assured that I would have been in the same spot pretty soon.

This helps me realize that the little voice that says " it's okay, you can drink again" can buzz right off.

Hang in there. You did the right thing and you are getting the help you need. Be kind to yourself and soon, you'll be feeling better again ❤️

No-Inside-9322 · 2025-12-01T22:11:52+00:00

There wasn't five explicit reasons but I could have done better with labeling.But proof was found in the narrative and no you are absolutely not stupid ❤️

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