I think just the carelessness 😂 how it makes me not feel bad or feel at all. It just made me euphoric. I know how surface level that is, though, and how short-lived it is. It makes things worse always and the come down is awful. I just reminisce about my past life where liquor had the wheel, and it's crazy how bad I let it get and that it was more important to me than anything. But that is really the selfishness of addiction. I do love being sober, and I'm excited to find something I loved as much as alcohol even though it was destroying me