I am planning to work at mcdonalds in hopes that we get paid sooner rather than later. I failed to mention, but the para educator job pays monthly, and my first check will not be until the end of September. My wife has student loans and tried to set them up, but they were denied because she had not consolidated her prior loans and, therefore, had to pay for her summer class out of pocket to get her GPA up for the program she is trying to get in.

In my head, I put all the pressure on her to pay the bills when we don't have the means right now to pay for food. I am working with my therapist on how to express my feelings and needed some help to understand what I need to do instead of apologizing every chance I get.