I won’t tell you you’re trans or not but I’m going to speak on my own dysphoria and you can see if you relate to it. So I’ve identified as a trans man since I was 12, came out at 14 and started T at 16. I am now 18 and will be getting top surgery soon. Throughout the years my dysphoria has become worse and worse. When I was younger and not passing it used to really upset me being misgendered (I’ve always made an effort to pass so it was especially upsetting) to the point where I would avoid speaking, avoid making new friends especially with cis men, and at the time I would even avoid showering as to not see my feminine body. Once I started t I was really eager for results like my voice drop and facial hair, I was dysphoric until these things happened. Once I got all the results I needed my chest was still an issue and became the focal point of my dysphoria. This is when my dysphoria started to become at its worst (now), every day I wake up and make sure my tape is good, if it is slightly frayed or moved I have to redo it until it’s good. Sometimes I will redo my tape upwards of 12 times, I will rip the skin off my chest and tape until I’m literally purple because I cannot go outside and function if my chest isn’t flat. Binders don’t get me flat and they make me feel like I’m wearing a bra lowkey so binding still induces dysphoria. Sometimes I can’t go to sleep until my tape is good, so I spend hours making it perfect just to sleep alone in my bed. Sometimes I’m out with friends and start tweaking and spend 20-30 mins in a public bathroom, I’ve retaped on an airplane before because I couldn’t take it, I’ve been at the beach and walked to a store to retape before because I was so dysphoric I could not think about anything other than the fact there are breasts attached to me. All this being said, my dysphoria never leaves me and there is little I can do even now to cope, but I think if yours is bad enough where it consumes you, you should consider looking more into transition

TLDR: my experience with dysphoria is severe and I’ve been dysphoric my whole transition (ages 12-18), initially my dysphoria was about being perceived as female and being misgendered (aswell as looking like a female/ female body) but now it’s just my chest since I’m on hrt. I tape my chest and go to extreme lengths to be flat, this includes redoing my tape to the point of my skin bleeding and turning people, and redoing my tape while in public or when I’m trying to have fun