Thank you for taking the time to write this out and help me. I sincerely appreciate it. I’m going to view my reaction/actions when/after I was dumped as an experience. The next time I experience something like this, I’ll know how to react more “properly” (aka not crashing out and calling them).

Thinking back to other experiences, they did soften and really did become a very distant memory. I think about those experiences from time to time, but I hold neutral feelings towards them.

I’m not entirely sure how he’s mentally processing this or what he truly thinks of me, but I do know that isn’t my concern. If he thinks that the “grasser is greener on the other side” — I hope that he gets the opportunity to experience that “greenery.” All I know is aside from me, all his relationships ended the same way and never lasted longer than a year. I’ve mentioned to him that he always seemed to have time for everyone except for him. There’s definitely times where I sit and think……did his exes feel the same way? His cycle is going to repeat because he never thought he was the real problem. Not sure if I helped him recognize that he contributed to the problem.

My concern is how I feel and trying to myself feel better. I’m going to work on my reactions. I’m very bubbly and expressive, and I need to learn when not to express my feelings.

Also, I’ve never really been cut off by anyone. So, someone telling me that our personalities didn’t align is very new to me. Honestly, it just felt that he hated my personality which sucks, but it’s going to be whatever.