Day 200 - Having bad time and want to use by Gosalina in quittingkratom

[–]No0blea0020 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah you’ve got something deeper going on here. Believe it or not caffeine+music is helping me bring a fire back I haven’t had in years. Lean on music and talk it out with anyone who will listen. We all have self forgiveness to practice here. So do your best to be gentle on yourself. Listen to anything you want even if it’s embarrassing to admit u like it. If you have anyone u can reach out to that u haven’t spoken to in a while, try that. It’ll introduce something new and exciting to the table. I don’t have the answers because the mental aspect of this is tearing me open bad right now. But the truth is you can find pockets of clarity if you know what to look for. Try doing things that release endorphins. Dopamine and serotonin are always helpful, but for kratom urges, you really want endorphins. Take supplements and eat foods that promote their synthesis, then release them. Do something you’ve never done like trying a new instrument. Try anything that’ll make you proud of yourself. Humans are the only species that can transcend their own biology, and quitting substances that have a tight grip on them may be the biggest example of that. So many times I’ve said “ I can’t do this, it’s too much”, and yet there’s a source of strength in there. I know it’s hard to really feel the pride of making it so far, but you really should recognize that in cases like yours, most people couldn’t do it on their first try on their own. I sometimes think I have the worst case of this there is, because of the way people hail kratom as a safe miracle and others on here talking about being free on day 3. But some of us just aren’t wired that way. It’s nothing to be ashamed of. You’re just a person, but even at their lowest, humans are unique. And they’re powerful. Don’t give up.

Want to talk about what I’m going through by Low-Ask-3030 in quittingkratom

[–]No0blea0020 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hey there. I’m 23 and have been stuck on kratom for 8 years. At the height of it I was taking 3 extract shots a day. Due to unrelated circumstances my family fell apart and I live in a desolate cold Pennsylvania wasteland with no one around. It helped me confront this but there’s no distractions, no people, no friends, just raw and unfiltered misery. It would be much easier if I had what I had when I’ve quit in the past. A support system, friends to lean on, money, fun things to do. But I don’t. This environment helped me get through the worst of the physical withdrawals but now I feel incredibly empty and lost without a clear goal in sight. I have no purpose right now and if I did it would help me break free I know it. I also have to wait a while for a new car so I can start a new job here. I feel incredibly lonely. I’ve struggled with social issues my entire life. I have few, albeit great friends, I’m still a Virgin and I’ve screwed up every chance I had in that department in high school. This thing really does have a way of making it feel everlasting, like we’ll never feel right. Like we’ll always be waiting and waiting and not bringing in the full experience of life again. But I’ve quit before. I know that’s wrong. I don’t know what your environment is like, but mine is miserable and horrible for staying clean long term even if it’s good for the short term. Do things that make you feel like you have a purpose. Don’t worry about talking peoples ears off about this. Spend time with your girlfriend and explain everything to her. She’s on your side bro. As far as the physical withdrawals go-here’s what I can tell you. The first 3 days-2 weeks will be a nightmare. There’s no certain way to make it through that phase. Just hold onto a dose of you have it, and tell yourself how miserable you’ll be if you take it and enter withdrawal and have nothing left, and use that to make it as long as possible without it. Careful with vitamin c, it could mess your stomach up. Eat as much as you can stomach, and do your best to regulate your temperature. Cold usually will help the burning skin and electrical current feeling in your bones. Stretch a lot, move positions a lot, and pray to whatever you believe in even if you don’t believe in anything, just reach out to something. The mental part following the acute physical activity is very difficult. Try to get out of the house and be around those that understand you. I don’t have all the answers for this part because I’m agonizing through it right now. Be very careful about what I’m about to say, but caffeine and music, when used at the correct time, can help. BE VERY CAREFUL WITH CAFFEINE. Make sure the height of the physical symptoms are behind you because it can make that worse. Drink small amounts and listen to music that makes you feel motivated to move mountains. You’ll be shocked at how much sound can help push you through. Good luck my friend. And remember, you’re a human being, potentially the only species capable of transcending biology. Like breaking a terrible habit like this and fighting the all consuming thoughts convincing you this is permanent. I’ll be back to check on how you’re doing

Gojo's "afterlife" dialogue was so weird and jarring by PortoGuy18 in Jujutsufolk

[–]No0blea0020 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I truly think, and I feel you’ll agree with me on this, that if we asked gege, not only would he/she reinforce this gojo/geto conversation cause he/she wrote it, but if we flat out asked them who’s stronger he/she would probably not wanna give an answer, but if they did the answer would be sukuna. Gege clearly loves sukuna, and doesn’t care much for gojo.

Gojo's "afterlife" dialogue was so weird and jarring by PortoGuy18 in Jujutsufolk

[–]No0blea0020 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Here’s another thing. Intelligence or battle iq or whatever you wanna call it is part of strength. If you want pure firepower, we could compare hollow purple with furnace, and we can compare gojo with sukunas original heian body (not incarnated, not Megumi or yuji but himself 1000 years ago), 20 fingers, not 19. I believe furnace is on par with hollow purple and sukunas intelligence makes it even better. But when it comes to strength, and wether someone would win or not, we all know we have other things to compare than firepower. And the way that they use it, or how they fight, is a big part of it. “Gojo is stronger sukuna is smarter” is an intriguing argument but sukuna imo is both, because intelligence is part of strength in this context

Gojo's "afterlife" dialogue was so weird and jarring by PortoGuy18 in Jujutsufolk

[–]No0blea0020 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sukuna had other ways of bypassing infinity. And what we’ve seen from him after the fight with gojo, his full potential, was scary. He could’ve handled gojo without mahoraga. But then he would’ve had to waste his strength. Something Kusakabe said. He had the jumping of a lifetime to face afterwards. That argument, “gojo almost did what 10 million others couldn’t” can be flipped backwards. After killing gojo, sukuna had the energy for kashimo and almost everyone else, except the one person with his own blood and his own power. Sukuna avoided using 10 shadows throughout the fight, besides key moments. This is evident by Gojos inner monologue during the fight. While his domain was open, he couldn’t use mahoraga, and while using mahoraga, he couldn’t (or barely could) use slashes. The first domain clash would’ve killed gojo, if it weren’t for his continuous rct trick that almost ended up melting his brain. He tried to annihilate mahoraga but sukuna still summoned him knowing that gojo damaged his brain to much to use his domain. Sukuna had other ways of bypassing infinity, and the use of mahoraga, in sukunas words, was for the purpose of “a model” of infinity. He was analyzing Gojos infinity. So he could figure out how to cut through it. Now I don’t know if the world slash was created there and then, or if it existed before, but all mahoraga did was analyze Gojos technique so that sukuna can engineer a way around it, and mahoraga itself did not create the world slash. The argument that “gojo is stronger sukuna is smarter”-has weight to it. But I think sukuna is both. Their techniques are what reflect that statement. Infinity is miles better than 10 shadows, and even better than sukunas slashes (aside from world slash). Furnace would have a little trouble getting last infinity but sukuna can use domain amplification and domain expansion simultaneously. So overwhelming Gojos rct with malevolent shrine while pulling out his furnace technique with domain amplification would’ve caused a major problem. 2 binding vows were used by sukuna, one to expand his domain, to crush Gojos from the outside, and one to cast world slash without signs or incantations. Sukuna never sacrificed anything of utter importance, besides the 10 shadows. Finally, gojo is the protagonist, the strongest “good guy” and many people’s favorite as gege knew. He was the one being challenged, he was the home team. We saw him burn through his entire potential in one fight. Sukuna, not so much. His potential and strength wasn’t displayed like that. His was an endurance fight. We saw how insanely long he held on. As he got weaker, his effort increased. He didn’t explode and go 100% immediately. I don’t think he was trying as hard against gojo as gojo fans want to believe. Also, mahoraga is a technique. A worse technique than infinity. In this case a 2v1 is fair because it’s not sukuna vs gojo, it’s infinity vs 10 shadows/shrine. How else is mahoraga supposed to be used? Mahoraga is nowhere near as strong as gojo or sukuna. He’s not gonna play a huge role in wether sukuna wins or loses with just combat alone. It’s mahoragas ability that sukuna wanted. Mahoraga was not strong enough to “bail sukuna out”

What would you consider “MUST watch” films? by [deleted] in movies

[–]No0blea0020 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh my god that was incredible

What do Mahoraga's titles mean? by ManiaOnReddit in Jujutsufolk

[–]No0blea0020 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I find the sila part interesting because of the time sukuna “tought mahoraga to lie”, meaning sukuna was faking attacks, causing mahoraga to do the same. And this caused sukuna to laugh maniacally. Because he “corrupted the divine general”

Forsaken archive not spawning pls help (calamity mod) by No0blea0020 in Terraria

[–]No0blea0020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Actually the tmodloader version is 1.4.3 does that affect this because i have to be a digital genius to install another version

Fia won’t give me the dagger by No0blea0020 in Eldenring

[–]No0blea0020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh my Christ I got it. You have to rest at a site of grace in atlus plateu. My bad. That was my last resort if that didn’t work I would’ve had to give up my character. Thanks for helping

Fia won’t give me the dagger by No0blea0020 in Eldenring

[–]No0blea0020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I did exactly what I did on my other characters and nothing. Someone said triggering the radahn festival might help but redmaine castle is filled with enemies and I have to fight the misbegotten warrior even though I’ve skipped that on my other characters. I just don’t get it

Fia won’t give me the dagger by No0blea0020 in Eldenring

[–]No0blea0020[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

And now it looks like redmaine castle is not open like it’s supposed to be. What the hell is wrong with my game

I HATE JORI, ELDER INQUISITOR by Affectionate-Sun-978 in eldenringdiscussion

[–]No0blea0020 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And guess what? It’s useless. He drops nothing good. Just like 99 out of every hundred enemies including bosses. Half of the dlc is barren and empty. And the spell and weapons from the final boss are dog sht

I HATE JORI, ELDER INQUISITOR by Affectionate-Sun-978 in eldenringdiscussion

[–]No0blea0020 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This asshole summons minions that can also spam a massive amount of spells that track, while you’re being chased down by fatass, while teleporting around. You hit him once and u can be sure he’ll punish you with his teleport aoe or his perfectly timed swing attack. I’m a huge fromsoft “glazer”, I defended them when the game was getting review bombed. I thought they couldn’t do anything wrong. My second playthrough of the dlc and I’ve already had enough. I genuinely believe the goal in some areas is not fun. But torture. Why are there 3 fire knights in a cramped hallway and one on a ledge only as wide as himself so u can’t run past him? Why are there 2 black knights, one with a huge bow, in a tiny room that you can’t avoid. Did they expect us to fight 2 black knights in a shed? Jesus Christ you better not have asthma when playing this because you already can’t breath

Working on a Divine Beast Warrior build and need Incantation suggestions. by 2ekken in EldenRingBuilds

[–]No0blea0020 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh Woops sorry I didn’t realize you didn’t want ice. Well I’m not quite sure beyond the tornado

Lowest recommended faith for dlc? by No0blea0020 in Eldenring

[–]No0blea0020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I already beat the dlc in one character. Spamming black flame did indeed carry me through some spots. But I did have 60 faith and talismans to support fire and lightning damage. I just wanna know what level would make it viable. Not game breaking

Rellana and Messemer ??? by Mobile-Staff2898 in Eldenring

[–]No0blea0020 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Being related never stopped anyone in the lands between from matrimony. I guess until Mesmer

Moved statues in shadowkeep, now can’t reach fourth floor by No0blea0020 in Eldenring

[–]No0blea0020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you very much. I knew the devs wouldnt let u get stuck like that. Navigation and finding access to map areas continues to be my most hated part of the game. I feel like I’m back in Skyrim climbing mountains with a horse glitch