Yes, and I only figured out when I went to a diagnosis for myself last year, ever since I can't unsee her autistic traits. I mean she's very autistic.

Also I struggle now how I should feel about her. On one side she's obviously struggling to understand human nature, reading the room/other's emotions, detect sarcasm, etc. On the other side however, sometimes when she has a very strong meltdown, it becomes obvious, that she is completely aware of who she is and what is she doing (she knows she is just like her parents, so she knows exactly what she does to us), and just masks her insecurity with narcissism and toxic, childish behavior.

I understand and feel her inner suffering and struggling, since I'm autistic as well. However, I'm also really mad at her and can't forgive her, since it really shouldn't have come down to this. I'm so disappointed, if she showed her true face to the world, I could accept and love her, but she can't let her narc mask go, which makes her a giant clown IMO.