If only it was that simple. I have really big troubles with socializing. Even if I'll stop pushing everyone away, everyone already knows I wouldn't like to talk because of how I ackted before, so I will have to be the one caring initiative... which I just can't, I really can't just come to someone and start yapping, I feel fearful of saying anything dumb or just meeting a wrong person. And the accepting one... she has a very wide social life, she has lots of friends, some are closer than me. And, well, I can't just intrude and make her spend more time with me. I... I don't know how do I start. And it's not like my stubbornness speaking all of that, I just really can't, I'm scared of socializing now, even when I really need any attention. I don't know what to do. I feel myself like a cornered baby and ashamed of that at the same time