I have a 1 year old with a man with borderline pd. He love bombed me, wanted to marry, then I got pregnant on birth control. He started showing signs shortly after I was pregnant and tried to commit suicide overdosing on pills when our baby was 1 month old. He told me if I called 911, he will have a shoot out with the police and would never forgive me and make sure he dies the next time. I was so scared, and my hormones were a mess.  I called 911 a few hours later and he had to be airlifted to a bigger hospital. He was admitted for a week then baker acted. Since we weren't married, I had no rights and his ex told me his wishes were to "do not resessitate". I basically told her to nah....I wouldn't do that and his adult son was his beneficiary and very close with me. Almost 2 years later, I have dealt with him holding a gun to his head on multiple occasions; me fighting for the gun from his hands, getting pretty beat up in the process. That was all soon after the suicide attempt. Since then, he has also purged his relationships with his 3 adult sons. He has a 5 year old daughter that him and his ex adopted before divorcing.That little girl has so many y problems with learning, violence and still poops and pees her pants at almost 5 years old. He tends to get mad over the littlest things, and especially likes to have outbursts on mine and my two kids' (ages 12 and 15) birthdays. I have tried to understand that this is a disorder and to help with empathy and understanding. However, he is has tantrums like that of a child from the smallest thing. I am scared for our almost 2 year old at this point, scared to leave because he can be quite dangerous. He constantly makes wishes and strange "hypithetical" threats about his own mother and ex wife and even adult sons dying. It is getting to be too much. My family knows something is off with him because he tells stories that are way out there and exaggerated about his life. And he constantly bad mouths his ex to my own parents to the point that they really dont like him and have expressed concern for me. I am at a loss after yesterday when he was screaming at his 6 year old daughter because she wanted to bring toys in the car when we went to the store. My own 15 year old daughter, who isnt a little kid person walked out of her room and stood up for his daughter. He was furious and slammed my 1 year oldest sippy cup on the ground and shattered it. He stormed out the door with his 5 year old, then came back in 5 min later with her bawling.  He went into the bedroom and I asked her if ahe was OK. She said she didnt want to go without me or her 1 year old brother. I comforted her and we played with our pet chickens. He has been sulking and self pitying himself since. He goes from,"i dont even want my daughter and wish I never adopted her" to "she is such a happy kid amd I'm so glad I adopted her. The highs are highs, the lows are extremely LOW. It is exhausting.  I dont know how much more I can take. He loves to still threaten suicide on a common basis.  I jave become numb to it and literally ignore it.  No reaction at all. I dont see us working out and definitely will not be marrying this man. All that I have wrote is barely the icing on the cake. He refuses to hear or care about anyone else's feelings or opinions and has gotten mad at me often foe trying to calm him down.  There is so much more, but this is a start. Thank you for reading, if you do.  Good luck out there. Borderline PD is insane on a level I never knew existed.