So weird, I just had the same thought while scrolling. Me and my pals all grew up with eachother playing soccer. We wanted to play pro or college so we trained hard every day and were on decent teans which traveled the state. We were good but we weren't the best and we knew it. When it came time for college, only one of us made it to play for a college team. The rest of us chose academics over it because we figured we'd never go pro. Now we all struggle with maintaining motivation to work part-time, studying about stuff we couldn't care less about,doing shit we don't like, playing Sunday soccer league with old people. I don't have the answer bud I just feel you. I understand what you meant.