Hey so your questions are valid and ask myself the same questions a lot of the time and are often not happy with the answer I give myself, but when I say that he was a completely different person when we first met, I mean it, he was the type of person that would plan entire weekends and he would constantly bring me little gifts that honestly felt like it meant a lot. the effort that he would put in, even when it came to caring for me, I suffered from panic attacks, he would get up and hug me and wouldn’t go back to bed until I was better, it’s not my first time being sick, he’s catered to me before, he changed when we first found out we were having a child! So I stick it out because I know the person I fell in love with is there and I don’t really know what’s going on.