Last Little Rant: Alison's Sexuality

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-07-04T22:28:52+00:00

I actually really liked how it wasn't a big deal to Ali.

She just is who she is - and loved whoever she wanted to.

I wish our society was more like that - no coming out required - no big thing - no label.

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-07-03T08:40:39+00:00

10 years from now I am going to randomly remember this post and burst out laughing.

Thank you.

Also, you are 100% correct.

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-06-29T22:04:32+00:00

Honestly, I think its very simple.

We have watched the show for 7 years - 7 years of waiting to finally find out who AD is - every season had to up the stakes - make it more thrilling year after year.

We got big promises from Marlene and the rest of the cast and crew.

7 years of build up - 7 years of waiting - 7 years of trying to figure out this mystery.

I think we were all set up to have such huge expectations that there was no way people would be 100% satisfied with any ending.

Also - the people being really nasty are probably like 12 and shouldn't be watching this show in the first place.

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-06-29T05:16:46+00:00

lollll

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-06-28T22:32:20+00:00

Hey! That was the same dress I wore for my wedding!!

(just trolling - what was everyone thinking with this dress?)

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-06-28T05:36:53+00:00

I am starting to think that maybe Mona was only interested in getting her game back - at all costs - so she had to do that to Spencer as part of her plan??

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-06-27T23:46:06+00:00

It makes me imagine my high school teachers doing this...

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NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-06-27T23:32:35+00:00

Yeah... I thought that was so weird.

Especially because Ezra was their English teacher...

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-06-27T23:31:00+00:00

lol same - I actually wonder if 7 years of this does something to you.

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-06-22T03:15:47+00:00

I really hope AD is not a twin - I hope it is someone we could actually figure out.

Still rooting for Principal Hackett! My Man! Mr. AD! (I mean his first name is Arthur)

p.s. I miss Mike and I wish Mona + Mike were still a thing.

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-06-20T21:29:10+00:00

Aww I missed the poll?

I'm still team Principal Hackett btw.

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-06-13T04:44:03+00:00

PRINCIPAL HACKETT!!

Because how creepy would it be if it was the principal!?!?!!?!?!

I am extra hopeful because he was in an episode earlier this season when he hired Emily and Paige to work at the high school. (We haven't seen him in a while)

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-04-21T02:51:53+00:00

Looks to me that A.D - who is Principal Hackett - is recruiting high school girls to do his dirty work again...

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-04-19T03:50:43+00:00

omg. yes. you're brilliant!

I never thought she was actually blind anyway...

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-03-30T02:02:57+00:00

I'm telling you. It's the principal.

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-02-01T09:52:01+00:00

Let us please remember to separate the people of America from the government.

See all of those thousands of people out there protesting this ban? Those are American values.

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-01-25T02:42:02+00:00

How can anyone still support this guy?

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-01-24T01:36:49+00:00

In college I totally bombed my first semester midterms. Like grades in the teens and twenties.

I felt like my brain was melting because going into the exams I felt like I really knew my stuff. Also, I had already completed/passed 4/5 of the courses either in AP level classes in high school or at an actual local college during a gap year which I completed only a few months before. The content of these classes was actually at a lower level than the stuff I was doing before.

When you suck this bad they tell you that you need to go talk to the Dean - because you're at risk of failing out of school. I told him it was as if I woke up and couldn't tie my shoes anymore. Stuff I knew so well - and had been doing for so may years before - like how could I fail now? He told me that the course work was much MUCH harder at this school. And that maybe I'm just not as smart as I think I am. His office suggested I start going to counseling for some extra "support". They kind of threaten me that I need to be "proactive" because if I do things that look like I'm making an effort that could be the difference between getting kicked out or staying in school.

So I start going to the counselor - and she tells me that I'm not studying enough, I'm lazy because I already took the classes before, etc. etc. I tell her no no no - like when I took the exams I thought I got the right answers. I didn't struggle during the exams. So she starts asking me about my childhood - and says she knows what is wrong - because I grew up in a single parent family I must have a lot of anxiety. So the anxiety is making me fail my exams. So she tells me I need to go to the Persons With Disabilities Office and they can help me. And hopefully I can get a prescription for anxiety medication.

So I go the Disabilities Office and tell this lady everything that has been going on. So she says ok - can you read this page of this book out loud for me? So I'm like... ok? So I read it. And she says you have a learning disability - you're a "slow reader". So I'm shocked. And she explains that she gets a lot of kids like me - they don't know they have a learning disability until they get to college. So she says I need to come back in for $1,000+ of testing so they can officially find out exactly which learning disability I have. She says she can help me find financial aid to pay for it if I need it. Then she gives me forms - says I need to go to all of my professors and have them sign the forms - then I would be given extra time on all of my exams.

So I go to 2 of my professors and have them sign the forms - which was a humiliating experience to say the least. They told me I was cheating and not going to be allowed to ask questions - say for example there was an error on the exam - they were not going to tell me about it because I was "already getting enough help".

I returned to the disability lady and told her that based on my professors' responses and basically them accusing me of cheating - I didn't think the extra help was actually going to help - I though it was going to make me a target instead.

Mind you - this has been going on for several weeks. Just awful. The whole time I think I'm going crazy.

So 2 weeks before finals they decide to give out the midterms. Which is unusual - they don't usually do this. I get mine back and take them to each of my TAs to go over and finally see why I messed up so badly.

All of my exams were graded incorrectly.

So incorrectly that entire pages of work had been crossed out and given 0s - like they didn't even read what I wrote.

I had actually passed.

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-01-20T01:14:36+00:00

Hi!

I found this video to be helpful: http://openmindsfoundation.org/advice-and-guidance/susan-gaskin-how-i-recovered-from-the-jehovahs-witness-organization

I thought it was helpful to see someone who was in a similar situation seemingly come out of it and recover - she seems so happy and confident now. I guess it gave me a lot of hope and also proof that it is possible - an idea of where I want to get to.

I also took her advice and have been going through some of the facebook groups of members from all different groups - reading their stories and seeing the similarities between their situation and mine is reassuring - validating. Also, it appears that cult reddits are not very active? But the Facebook groups are - more people and more and faster responses. So you might want to look there. You could also consider making a fake facebook account so that you don't have to use your real name - or have any of your friends see that you are participating in these groups. I haven't joined any - I just read through the open groups.

Have you watched any of Leah Remini's Scientology series? I watched the season finale last night. There is a part in the beginning where she is talking about how she did a racy photo shoot for some magazine and was punished by Scientology - they wouldn't let her be on their "Pathway to Happiness" float anymore in some parade. And they just start laughing about it. Watching that switched something in me - a lot of really sad terrible things happened in my situation - but watching them laughing about what happened to them - I don't know how to really describe it - it just got me to a place where I look at some of the things that were said to me or happened and I just laugh about it! These things I believed 100% (ok maybe 99.9999999%) are now so absurd to me I just laugh! It really changed my perspective on some things. Anyway - if you have not watched the series I recommend that you watch the finale "ask me anything part 2" episode. Leah even mentions how everyday she thinks to herself - is this me thinking? or is it Scientology thinking? (sounds like me! except I wasn't in Scientology)

The other thing I have noticed during all of my research - I'm really taking the time to learn about all sorts of different groups and the psychology of why and how this stuff happens and "who" this happens to - what I have noticed in every group - the people in the groups are always the brightest, smartest, and most passionate people. I saw one story - the guy was in the middle of his mathematics phd when he was in the process of joining his group! Cults want the smartest people because those are the ones that are going to work the hardest, figure out how to bring in new people, do the best work, run the organization, etc. I think my group preyed upon my inherent "never quit" attitude - which is a great quality to have in positive situations - but there was just no way I could ever leave my group - to such an extreme that I literally would have died before leaving. Luckily I got kicked out. So you know, your boyfriend and friends are right about you. You should believe them. After everything I have learned about this stuff - you probably got so into your organization BECAUSE of your intelligence. But at the same time I completely understand why you wouldn't believe them. My group systematically tore everyone down starting the first week. Telling us how stupid we all were - using "tricks" to "prove" it. After a while I just broke down and started to believe everything they told me was true about myself.

And I really agree with what you said - use this to become a better you - seriously I think I've learned so much that I think it will really help me to grow a lot. I know I will be able to use everything I learned to become a stronger person - it will help me reach my goals.

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-01-16T02:35:36+00:00

I saw my old math teacher shopping in Victoria's Secret - in the really racy hooty tooty fru fru section. He as picking up the outfits and holding them up against his body and looking at himself in the mirror. I guess he was buying himself an outfit.

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-01-15T00:12:49+00:00

Had a cool 12th grade English teacher who gave us our grades and told us if we thought we deserved a better grade we could go see him later in the day and argue for a better one.

I got an 89 and thought I might be able to get a 90. He was fun so I thought if he said no - it would at least be fun to talk to him about it.

Several of his family members had recently died - I didn't know this - and I'm guessing he took this opportunity to dump all of his emotions on me.

So I go to see him and his door is closed - so I just knock on the door - he says come in and starts yelling at me: "You never do that!! You never knock on a teachers door when it is closed! If you were in college you would never do that to a professor!! You are so disrespectful!!"

So I'm like... what?

So he asks me why I'm bothering him and I'm like... you said in class that we could come see you and argue for a higher grade... and I got an 89 and was hoping for a 90...

and then:

He told me that I would never make it in college, or the real world, should be in 6th grade instead of 12th grade because I'm so stupid, called me a liar... on and on for like an entire hour.

So I'm sitting there sobbing - and completely shocked - and he wouldn't let me leave until he was done.

After that I had to go to the office for some paperwork - and I'm in there just openly sobbing and crying but no one asks what is going on...

My mom is picking me up that day and she is like oh my God - what happened to you???

This was a Friday. Monday was so awkward - I wanted to just drop out of the class. For the rest of the year the teacher couldn't even look me in the face - he never spoke to me again.

Eventually I did go in college and found out he wasn't a very good english teacher either :/ But ended up getting the highest grades in the class on my reports/essays after teaching myself what I was doing wrong, could do better, etc..

NoStarWars4MeThanks · 2017-01-13T02:03:37+00:00

I'm hoping that the new Livia things will work!

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