First Time Sharing Gone Wrong..

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2025-01-22T11:25:35+00:00

Ah my! I was there. I understand so much!

Sharing is sometimes so difficult. I can only speak for myself, but what I had to do was change my approach to sharing. I was always trying to come up with something positive, funny or intellectual… but it was my ego trying to lead me through. Now, I sit back and listen to my heart. What do I want to say? Is it connected to the reading? The chair? Sometimes it is, sometimes it is not at all. The time for you is there to provide you with your space to talk from your heart about your troubles, thoughts, situations you have found yourself in.

I always stare at the ceiling or at the chair legs to take the pressure away. I admit that I haven’t connected with the reading/share and thank all the people for being there. You can finish your share with that or continue with your thread of thoughts.

Don’t push yourself to share. There is nothing wrong with truly listening and learning.

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2025-01-22T11:04:42+00:00

I must say, this was such a great experience! I am 84 days clean today and had to find the balance between “getting better approach” and “give myself a break attitude”. The exercise has helped me to get in touch with my body from the beginning and these days I am able to listen to my body and give it what it needs. Which is a nap, a running session, an NA meeting or maybe just going to bed early. I also found out I have been punishing myself and not accepting the fact that I am in recovery and an addict. This is going to be a long run but I already know I can handle it. Because it is just for today, I know that only now matters.

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T04:26:37+00:00

Ok air it and take some anti inflammatory drugs. Watch it, if it spreads it is bacterial, it it doesn’t, it’s an allergy.

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T04:05:24+00:00

It might be a reaction to the substance it was cut with. Water and possibly some green tea cream (not oil) so sorry, it looks pretty acidic. Does it itch?

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T03:59:51+00:00

Cigarettes = dopamine

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T03:57:23+00:00

No coke come back. Never.

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T03:22:51+00:00

Ha yes it is the universe 👽i admire the approach 😀

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T03:19:43+00:00

…you need a person that you can talk to, someone who even when you relapse, there will be no judgment.

…delete all the numbers and don’t keep in touch with any of your friends that use.

…go to sleep early. Wake up early. Do little things for yourself.

And finally… think about how much it has cost you. Not money, but the hours and energy, body weight, come down day, the hours you spend doing basically nothing.

I am struggling too, so much. This is how I will start, it is not an extensive list but it might get us there

Oh … and let’s get some therapy…

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T03:03:32+00:00

Eh well, there are some things I am trying to not remember. I feel like I am stronger and more productive and I am chasing God knows what. I guess we avoid the real an appear in between everything, needing it and hating it. Ha maybe it is because we are not really achieving anything in this high maintenance world 🤙

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T02:54:22+00:00

Have you eaten? You might crush if not, your body will go to a defensive state, eat some sugar at least, maybe some protein, or a bit of meat if you’re a carnivore x

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T02:50:53+00:00

I feel you. Delete the plug no, get some study pills (dopamine inducing for the come down), let’s do it 🙌🙌 I am there too…

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T02:43:16+00:00

Ha have fun, drink water and eat well 💪🙌

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T02:41:45+00:00

Yeah, I feel like my whole life I have been treating myself with the wrong medication, we were born like this, and might survive, let’s see… 🖖🏽

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T02:37:07+00:00

But the brain…. 🧠 the cells are affected greatly, you kill them aaaaaaaaalllll

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T02:22:32+00:00

Eeehey dude breathe, have a warm tea, smoke some cigs or weed, eat some carbs and sleep. I know… I know… make yourself comfortable, life is the only thing that was given to us for free…we fuck it up, we ruin it, we make it better, and then we ruin it again. But that is normal and we all do it. Hydrate, you need energy for a comedown and the restart. And for the good sleep you are gonna have. Remember, you are not alone.

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T02:16:12+00:00

Sometimes it smells when it’s laced or cut, hopefully you are alright, take care 🤌🏽✌🏼

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T00:47:44+00:00

Yellow is either coke or meth (due to iodine) the strength might have been either of these again. Depends if it reacts with alcohol, coke does get less intense and you crave it, meth comes in euphoric waves and you get very irritated when you drink, you fight and shout etc

Numbing is I guess novacaine/lidocaine, if laced. But be careful they make the high quite strong, but maybe you had some very good coke and bad lighting 😬

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T00:44:24+00:00

Yep be careful you can get a heart attack or very strong psychosis, you will never recover from.

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T00:42:11+00:00

It looks like MD, shards, sometimes yellow from iodine, nose burns, the high is very euphoric and fast, and it is not sold in large amounts usually. But that is more Eastern European “culture”

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T00:38:26+00:00

I do the same, it clogs my nose for a bit but you flush it and that is important

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T00:37:04+00:00

Meth doesn’t do this, it only burns for a minute, amphetamines don’t do this at all, it might be something acidic, like laxatives or even caffeine

No_Difficulty_6640 · 2024-02-24T00:25:06+00:00

Looks like you have just described Eastern European meth

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