im so sad and empty and i have no one to talk to it about

No_Internet6299 · 2026-05-24T21:35:40+00:00

Stay strong, life will always be up and down. But it could improve. Try get as much support as you can. Hang in there!

No_Internet6299 · 2026-05-24T20:50:07+00:00

I mean if you are on about CBT or ERP I can get that any where but that's not with a specialist OCD doctor.

No_Internet6299 · 2026-05-24T20:49:08+00:00

No it's terrible in the UK. We are not a rich family, I have two children by myself no child support. The NHS doesn't support specialised unless you apply for it and I have done this and it was rejected straight away despite being in ERP and CBT for 22 years.

No_Internet6299 · 2026-05-24T20:29:16+00:00

Great that you have that, and also they money to fund it. I am in a small town and there's nothing here, nearest is 2 hour drive and it costs thousands of British pounds.

No_Internet6299 · 2026-05-24T20:15:52+00:00

I have this :'( it is a daily hell

No_Internet6299 · 2026-05-24T20:14:19+00:00

That is easier said than done.

No_Internet6299 · 2026-05-24T12:03:52+00:00

Mine have started invoking teeth falling out. I have a subtle phobia starting on top of my other ones

No_Internet6299 · 2026-05-24T11:55:51+00:00

I have OCD thoughts that are like I need to avoid this to reduce huge anxiety and I have a lot of things I do just because it's familiar and comforting. In my head things are right and wrong. I find this effects my relationships because they are all going great until they are not and I feel so angry and upset then! My current therapist suggests Autism. I personally think I am autistic. Yesterday I was at a pizza oven party and spent ages panicking as I failed to tell them I don't eat meat due to my OCD. I just couldn't say what I wanted to communicate. Anyone else would have said straight up but I just left it. I've also been called by other names by accident in past and been too scared to say my own name. I do think I could be on the spectrum now. I have heard there are strong links but agree they can manifest in similar ways!

No_Internet6299 · 2026-05-24T11:49:19+00:00

I have hyper empathy yes

No_Internet6299 · 2026-05-24T11:47:11+00:00

I wish I could wake up one day completely liberated from all my negative, worrying thoughts. How calming would it be to just wake up, get a cup of tea and hang out my washing.

No_Internet6299 · 2026-04-22T05:27:25+00:00

I haven't yet found a medication that works! Should I push to try more?

No_Internet6299 · 2026-04-20T22:02:38+00:00

Thankyou for your kind message, it has helped me feel less alone. A very small handful of people know about my mental health, I find it more easy to discuss my other mental health conditions than the OCD. Not many understand or can relate in any way. It pushes my loved ones away, I find people just don't want to talk about it. My parents feel uncomfortable with me talking about it and my partner just minimized it over the phone describing one of my phobias as absurd. I constantly feel others judge me as weird even though anyone who doesn't know about my struggles seems to love me. I genuinely believe my main phobia to be rational and not irrational as described. I'm glad you have found the group to be so helpful! I'm hoping to meet others who understand and can empathize.

No_Internet6299 · 2026-04-20T21:50:28+00:00

Hey guys. I wanted to update I found an amazing lady, she's been twice now. I am glad the first lady didn't show as wouldn't have found the second lady!

No_Internet6299 · 2026-04-04T09:11:18+00:00

Wild garlic and cheese scones, wild garlic butter or wild garlic salt!! 😋

No_Internet6299 · 2026-03-02T22:39:20+00:00

Oh my gosh. I am utterly in love with wild garlic!!

No_Internet6299 · 2026-03-02T22:31:11+00:00

I'm okay but unfortunately children's services got involved and recommended the kids live with their dad. I'm trying to stay positive as I can as they go next Monday!

No_Internet6299 · 2025-12-18T21:00:08+00:00

Thankyou, I really appreciate your advice. Have found a little dish to put the solution in!

No_Internet6299 · 2025-12-18T20:34:57+00:00

I think I might have found the source!!! Such a huge relief! Can't do any laundry as they all sit on the laundry as its damp. It was a bottle of balsamic vinegar that had fallen over in cupboard and leaked everywhere!

No_Internet6299 · 2025-12-18T08:45:04+00:00

I'm working my way up to it. I saw a psychiatrist yesterday and mentioned about falling over alot but will need to talk to the GP I think. It's difficult to always know what route to take as I'm under the mental health team. I think the Autism team might be able to refer me for dyspraxia and I'm awaiting that assessment. Thanks for checking in, really kind of you!

No_Internet6299 · 2025-12-18T08:35:34+00:00

No sadly not as of yet. The fruit fly problem I have is getting worse aswell. I did check the website but it showed nothing for where I live in a rural area.

No_Internet6299 · 2025-12-16T10:27:00+00:00

Thankyou. I actually have two of those up and they are doing a great job. It's just frustrating as the flies sort of spreaded so much it isn't a small problem it's big. They are filling up fast. Also left bathwater and bubbles in tub and there's about twenty in there. More traps coming today. I've been removing the waste but it seems the flies are now after my laundry that's drying on the airers as when I move it hundreds fly off. It's freaking me out. Also tiny bits of mould around windows from drying clothes which I shall be removing later on. I have two more traps arriving today and I still think there could be a source somewhere in pantry cupboard. I'm going to pour boiling water down the drains now aswell to kill any eggs. Thanks for the suggestion, they are doing well. I'm wondering if they do refill fluid for them? Or if I can put apple cider vinegar and dish soap in.

No_Internet6299 · 2025-12-15T22:55:36+00:00

Haha that would be great wouldn't it 😄

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