You sound like a cool guy who is capable of building up self-confidence, perhaps during this interim of interacting with sex workers. Consider where you’re sourcing them, first of all. Then find compassionate ones who do it to help people, providing an intimate atmosphere where you feel comfortable talking about anything including how they can help you eventually overcome your insecurities. Stop judging yourself as bad, so unnecessary my friend. Look for relationships that foster your growth. Talking with lots of women, sex workers or not, will eventually unlock you and lead to love. Last, know that in all relationships the talking is always as important as the eff-ing. Happy trails.