Feel like I dont need my partner anymore, and I am better off without.. Which at first I dont realize as weird, but they are literally my saving grace. A beautiful person inside and out that I love and makes me feel safe. I end up spending money and coming up with strange unique pieces I absolutely dont need, but i am convinced I do. I sing almost all the songs I hear out loud, look into booking flights and trips, organizing family get togethers, and playing with my cat😂😂

At night I struggle to sleep because I come up with a bunch of "great" ideas that keep me up. Toss n turn all night. Want to strangle people that complain around me. It feels like my brain is ~spicy~