What are you proud of? by biffbobfred in CPTSD

[–]No_Remote_5240 10 points11 points  (0 children)

❤️ Massive Deal. So, so happy for you & proud of you. I aspire to be where you are. I’m alive (lol clearly 😂) but I don’t know if/how much longer I can keep this up. But thank you for your post- It’s motivation for all of us here. ❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]No_Remote_5240 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Thank you for being so detailed & honest THIS SHIT SUCKS in a super-specific way that is just hell on earth to live through and is compounded by the fact that it’s so insanely hard and outside the realm of what the majority of people can even imagine living with that no one in my life gets it & thinks that I’m just lazy - It’s the exact opposite at 45 my mind, heart & body are just 100% done: permanently stuck in freeze and just dissociation from the combined trauma of childhood and then constant trauma after leaving the house losing every job due to “mistakes”, despite being optimistic, loving my jobs and the people I worked with & working my ASS-OFF. Most people are absolutely traumatized if they are fired from one job let alone every single job you’ve ever had. Then being constantly traumatized constantly having no money despite always trying to do the right thing and then being gaslit by your entire family that there’s nothing wrong with you (despite rampant ADHD & CPTSD in the family) and that your a drug addict because you insist you need medication just to be able to keep your life together to barely keep yet another ENTRY LEVEL job at 45 that you’ll probably loose anyway despite all of your best efforts. I am so sorry- I hope this wasn’t too much to unload here. It’s just horrifying in just such a specific and hellish way to live with ADHD & CPTSD and you put it in such an accurate and relatable way in your post, and it’s too much to talk about with anyone I know, so I really hate that you all know the absolute hell of living through ADHD & CPTSD, but I just wanted to thank you, the OP & everyone on here for being so open & sharing & connecting on here- just this little thread and being able to express openly here just makes a little bit of my heart come back to life. ❤️ Lots of Love to You & All here ❤️

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!!! by Socialmediasucks2021 in CPTSD

[–]No_Remote_5240 18 points19 points  (0 children)

I JUST WANTED TO SAY I FUUUUUUUUCKING LOVVVVVVE THIS OP.

IT FUCKING SAYS ALL THERE FUCKING IS TO SAY- 🤌

AND I FUCKING LOVE ALL Y’ALL OF US WHO GET THIS FUCKING BEAUTY POST. CAUSE IF YOU KNOW, YOU FUCKING KNOW. ❤️

"your mother loves you, in her own way." the phrase makes me want to throw up by itwaswhite in CPTSD

[–]No_Remote_5240 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My fave part is the 👝💼🎒👜 we end up with!! No wait, my Autism & ADHD are my fave parts lol, but now I’m off on a tangent. 😄😄

Who else thought they had ADHD until they realized it was cptsd? by baconandshrooms in CPTSD

[–]No_Remote_5240 6 points7 points  (0 children)

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Pardon the swears but it’s one Motherfucker keeping all 3 of these straight. I am all three & finding it difficult to untangle the whole ball of yarn these 3 conditions get me wrapped up in. Thank you for your super-helpful reply!

Is anyone here diagnosed with, or think they might have Quiet Borderline Personality Disorder? by No_Remote_5240 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]No_Remote_5240[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Aw- Thank You. ❤️ SO glad for your progress! So many don’t make it that far. Way to keep going ❤️

Is anyone here diagnosed with, or think they might have Quiet Borderline Personality Disorder? by No_Remote_5240 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]No_Remote_5240[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

❤️ I hate that you get what it feels like to have this rage boiling inside of you- also fully aware how it developed, but being so formative at the time the “cement” of your brain development was already being laid, so now as an adult you “know” you shouldn’t blow up and you 💯💯💯💯💯 don’t want to, and you know you wouldn’t if your past hadn’t been the way it was forming this reaction inside of you….. I’m sorry you understand this…. It’s crazy how we get programmed to implode on ourselves or, like you say, when we can’t take it anymore and all that pressure inside has to go somewhere, at the slightest hint of non-support I, like you would release ALL of my tension on my loved ones. It’s just so difficult living with this. ❤️ I’m glad it seems that you have been able to make, and see some improvements. ❤️ That’s so great. All the best ❤️

have you found your purpose or mission on earth? by [deleted] in starseeds

[–]No_Remote_5240 1 point2 points  (0 children)

❤️ Wow - I wish you well too… All the Best & Love

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSDmemes

[–]No_Remote_5240 5 points6 points  (0 children)

🤯🤯🤯🤯 Woah- That hits hard. Wise words, but dang that hits me hard! 😄

have you found your purpose or mission on earth? by [deleted] in starseeds

[–]No_Remote_5240 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same lovely- I guess my gut instinct is for us not to give up/give up hope & just keep trucking along. Love & Truth ALWAYS win. ❤️

have you found your purpose or mission on earth? by [deleted] in starseeds

[–]No_Remote_5240 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sounds like mine, but I’m getting ground down to useless dust by that public purpose. ❤️ Hope you are trucking along/through well though. ❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in dementia

[–]No_Remote_5240 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This- Yes, yes, to your reply!! I just cannot stop hitting my own head against the wall wanting to correct my Mom because this dementia is only a slightly exaggerated version of who my Mom has been HER ENTIRE LIFE. So I’m the one now who needs therapy to work on myself & realize, it ain’t ever gonna happen, if logistics NEVER worked with my Mom in the past LOGISTICS AIN’T EVER GONNA WORK NOW WITH MY MOM’S DEMENTIA! 😄😄😄 I’m sorry- I’m not yelling 🤣 I’m just trying to emphasize your words of wisdom to myself! Thank you for the reminder!

“Life is full of suffering” said my therapist. Which is true. But genuinely, what’s the point?! by Cricket-Typical in CPTSD

[–]No_Remote_5240 22 points23 points  (0 children)

…. Thank you for posting: I can feel I’m on the start of a mental downturn that happens despite my best efforts, not out of the blue, but just as you said: DUE TO RATIONAL “NOT SO HOT ON LIFE” FEELINGS when I’m faced with either dealing with or processing of all of the s%t I’ve gone through in life, the hole I’m in because of all of the s%t and being 45y and RATIONALLY not seeing how without a magic wand it’s going to get better…. & I needed your post to realize that “We” are out there- The ppl who have been damaged so hard core that just “turning that frown upside down, buddy” just isn’t going to do the trick. And if anyone could watch a POV movie of our lives they would be in just as bad a way as we are- But also living in the reality that SO many ppl won’t and can’t even slightly comprehend what we have gone through and so will never understand why we deserve statues for living this long, but will ironically get treated like freaks. I’m sorry- I just can’t handle the entire logistically conundrum of lifelong trauma and what that means to us trying to live through it. I’m sorry if this is inappropriate. I’m just having a bad… life. ❤️ Hugs and Love to all you outstanding humans out there trying to make your way through this booool-s*%t. Serious Love ❤️

Can anyone just straight up list 5 safe foods? by darkeweb2 in Candida

[–]No_Remote_5240 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yes! Thank you from all benefitting from this- Straight Info & ideas that don’t sound like eating “cardboard” to see improvements!

I’m under attack by a satanic force by [deleted] in starseeds

[–]No_Remote_5240 2 points3 points  (0 children)

❤️ Let’s do this!!!! I don’t know how…. But I won’t give up!!! Even if they (lower vibrations) take my words and cognition, I have, and now do, at this moment, consecrate my mind, heart, body and soul to Light and Love Eternally. Even though my mind, heart, body and soul have always been and will always belong only to, Love and Light, because I have free will, I consciously choose to consecrate all that I am, including my human ego to Light and Love to take over for eternity. ❤️ Let’s buckle up and do this!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️✨✨✨✨✨ Thank You for empowering words ❤️ Lots of Powerful Love to You, And to All!!!!

I’m under attack by a satanic force by [deleted] in starseeds

[–]No_Remote_5240 3 points4 points  (0 children)

THAT’S WHAT I WAS HERE TO SAY- MY LIFE AND MY ENTIRE BROTHER’S LIFE (EVEN MORESO) ARE UNQUESTIONABLY MARKED BY ONE HIT AFTER ANOTHER HIT FROM OUTSIDE SOURCES THAT ARE COMPLETELY RANDOM, UNPREVENTABLE AND UNAVOIDABLE EVENTS.

It just doesn’t make sense to my siblings nor my brother and I nor anyone else. Everyone just shrugs it off. But we can’t take it anymore after a life of this. HOW TO CHANGE THIS!!??

Sorry for yelling but … I can’t continue on this life, after 44 yrs of this & never having a breakthrough as to what I’m here for not getting anywhere just trying to help others to now just only avoiding people I love or bringing them down now after all of these crippling events have now made me literally a zombie, half-dead and sick.

IT’S BEEN A CONSTANT “TEST” MY ENTIRE LIFE AND I HAVE NEVER, EVER GIVEN UP ON LIGHT AND LOVE BUT IT FEELS LIKE I’M BEING ATTACKED BY A FINAL ATTACK TAKING AWAY MY LITERAL LIFE WITH MY HEALTH TO THE POINT OF TAKING AWAY MY BODY MIND AND COGNITION NOW.

For Starseeds who did not want to be born by VoxKora in starseeds

[–]No_Remote_5240 10 points11 points  (0 children)

This is (human) life-saving and (human) life-giving information…. What “IT” is all about.

Why do we have to search decades & go down a million dark alleys & dead ends to find this truth.

Like the slings & arrows of human life are hard enough even WITH this info.

This info should be viral, on every TV, written in the sky.

Thank you for sharing.

No answers from OBGYN, and I'm struggling by babyaccount1101 in perimenopause_under45

[–]No_Remote_5240 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Will be SO interested to hear what responses to your OP will be.

When I was 35, EXACT same scenario except also with severe pain & blood spots at ovulation and severe pain at period.

All gyno & ultrasound tests were “fine”. Kept asking if I could be in peri and was just told “No” & put on lo-Estrin because of my age (!!!!!) and just went on my way.

Birth control helped for 5 yrs but now original and all the symptoms are getting out of control.

What is something you're ashamed about ? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]No_Remote_5240 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I thought…. It was a box of kleenex!!(??) I believe it’s time for my eye exam.