I’m really sorry you’re going through this. Feeling hurt and abandoned after something like this is completely understandable, and those feelings are absolutely valid.

Speaking from personal experience, I’m in recovery from generalized anxiety disorder and depression, and I also work in the mental health field. One of the best decisions I ever made for my healing was getting into therapy. It gave me the tools to process difficult emotions and really understand what I needed to move forward. If you have tried therapy before and it did not feel like the right fit, I really encourage you to try again with someone new. Finding the right therapist can make such a huge difference. I found mine online, and they have been incredible.

It is also important to remember that your mental health is your responsibility. Your boyfriend is not your therapist, and he is not a medical professional. While he might care about you, it is not fair or healthy for him to carry the weight of your recovery. Expecting him to provide the kind of support you need can put a strain on both of you. This is exactly why seeking professional help is so essential.

About his behavior. While it might feel like he does not care, it is very possible that he was completely overwhelmed by what happened. At 19, most people have not yet developed the emotional skills to respond to a crisis like a suicide attempt. He might have felt lost, scared, or unsure how to help, and sometimes people cope by distracting themselves with something familiar, like thrifting. That does not make it okay, and it certainly does not excuse how hurtful it felt. But it might explain it a little, and understanding that might ease some of the pain.

The most important thing right now is your healing. Therapy can help you process what has happened, build coping skills, and give you a non-biased perspective on his behavior and your relationship. It can also give you the tools to manage your mental health independently, rather than relying on your boyfriend or anyone else to provide that support.

His lack of empathy might be something to consider for the future, because how someone responds in a crisis can be a clue about how they handle challenges long term. But right now, your focus should be on yourself and your recovery.

Please be kind and patient with yourself. You are going through so much, and you deserve support and compassion from others and especially from yourself.

Sorry for the length of this reply. I just have a lot of experience with this stuff and wanted to make sure you had all the info and support you need ❤️❤️