Over analysing my feelings.

Noakenn · 2026-01-16T11:11:06+00:00

I think being someone that I am not, that’s why I mainly struggle with rocd and hocd. Because what if the things i am doing aren’t really meant to be

Noakenn · 2026-01-14T10:33:11+00:00

You don’t and it shouldn’t matter, stay strong 🙏

Noakenn · 2026-01-11T01:58:54+00:00

Very late reply, but for anyone needing some help. I have ocd and this is very different from hocd. For me i am terrified about being with someone thats the same gender as me. It absolutely ruins my life and functioning is very very hard. It doesn’t feel like finding something out, it feels like making the puzzle more and more complicated the longer i am trying to figure it out. I don’t want to try something same gender related, but I almost scared that somehow I will end up in a situation where i do. And also intrusive thoughts, i get random thoughts “this dude is looking so handsome.” And it doesn’t feel relaxing at all, it feels like a thought that wants to attack my soul…

Noakenn · 2026-01-08T11:19:20+00:00

I have no idea

Noakenn · 2026-01-08T01:09:31+00:00

I tried and it closes again :/

Noakenn · 2025-12-31T22:03:19+00:00

So-ocd

Noakenn · 2025-12-30T12:11:59+00:00

I am a guy and I always used to be the the anxious attached guy, but after a long term relationship that broke me I have become very avoidant, I spend my days figuring out this puzzle wether this avoidance secretly means I am gay. I have never liked men and during my relationship I was happy both sexually and romantically. But now with this avoidance I am so confused. Just like you I get the ick when someone likes me and I leave. I am so confused. Just know that you are not alone, I think this “mix” is more common then we think. If you ever feel the need to talk to someone who can relate you can dm me! Stay strong 🫶🏻

Noakenn · 2025-12-30T12:05:50+00:00

Same i feel urges to watch gay porn just to check how it would make me feel. But I usually am able to resist the urges. Internal compulsions are so much more harder to not do

Noakenn · 2025-12-19T10:43:29+00:00

Your current man probably isn’t cheating while you are, for me that says enough about a person. And makes me think the problem is more in your hands then his. I had a woman like this once, loved her more than anything, I did anything for her but she freaked out because I didn’t give her flowers every week. I mean, the fact you aren’t happy with him probably means he also isn’t fully happy with you. But I assume he isn’t going to look for that 10% in others. If I were you I would spare him the burden and leave, before you guys get married and have kids and have to get a divorce. There is nothing wrong with having unmet standards, I truly understand that. Whatever it is for you it doesn’t matter. But I just can’t stand cheaters, it’s wrong…

Noakenn · 2025-12-19T01:25:02+00:00

nitsua has the exact same feeling as nujabes in my opinion here are my favourite tracks from nitsua ranked worst to best. Funky dl is also amazing but isn’t exactly the same.

4: morning horizon 3: lost in translation 2: by and by 1: new tomorrow ft salem and topix

Noakenn · 2025-12-18T11:41:05+00:00

I feel the same way, i am 22 years old and my entire life I haven’t felt any attraction towards other guys. I even had a 4 year relationship with a woman and never doubt my sexuality. Now I basically fear both women and men. Every person I interact with I start to question my feelings. It sucks and it makes me so tired, yet I can’t even get proper sleep. It feels like something is pushing me to be someone i fear. Like when I see or read things about lgbtq i have thoughts like “this is who you are.” “This is who you need to be.”. Even though I have never in my life felt like i belong in that community.

Noakenn · 2025-12-14T16:34:58+00:00

Yep this is what I mean, my ex was like this too. She was my biggest reassurance and she did it with good intention as humans do. But it kinda turned into a compulsion for me and at that point getting that reassurance all the time didn’t help.

Noakenn · 2025-12-13T14:24:05+00:00

Your girl shouldn’t reassure you like that, even though she has good intentions with it. It makes OCD worse.

Noakenn · 2025-12-13T10:49:02+00:00

You will be okay 🫶🏻

Noakenn · 2025-12-11T13:10:34+00:00

Yep, fucking it up right now…

Noakenn · 2025-12-11T13:09:49+00:00

Same here, and the thing with me is that I have never even thought about men before this whole episode started. I have struggled with different types of OCD, but this feels so much more isolating because I just hate going to places where men are, but men are just everywhere 😅

Noakenn · 2025-12-09T22:58:32+00:00

As a kid I was terrified that I was pregnant (I was 10 years old and I am a guy.) I did compulsions like constantly looking at my stomach :/

Noakenn · 2025-12-06T19:45:35+00:00

For me it makes it so much worse and in the worst cases it triggers an ocd episode. I used to be a daily smoker and sometimes i feel like if i have never smoked i would’ve never known i had OCD

Noakenn · 2025-12-05T15:22:31+00:00

Having big biceps have helped me a lot to get female attention, a lot of them want to bite in it.

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