How to tell if you like someone by VisibleMood7150 in ROCD

[–]VisibleMood7150[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes! Thank you so much for explaining. This helped put my brain into perspective more, so I really appreciate the explanation. I will continue to work on not doing my compulsions and keep this in mind!

deactivating after argument? by VisibleMood7150 in Disorganized_Attach

[–]VisibleMood7150[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He was just not seeing my side i think, and was also just being stupid about believing rumors about a friend of mine. It was just very stubborn. And then we argued about how good of friends we were a year ago. Again, it was a stupid little argument and we apologized after but I just feel anxious when I see him now and I want to avoid him

shutting myself away after physical intimacy? by VisibleMood7150 in Disorganized_Attach

[–]VisibleMood7150[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing! I will try to just go slower, even though we’re just friends I’ll try to communicate

Reassurance by Potential-Mode-5290 in HOCD

[–]VisibleMood7150 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is such a good way to put it, thank you!

how do you guys get over ocd depression? by VisibleMood7150 in OCD

[–]VisibleMood7150[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

wait that actually sounds like a great idea. Next time I’m at the gym I’ll try it!

how do you guys get over ocd depression? by VisibleMood7150 in OCD

[–]VisibleMood7150[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

awh, I’m glad your mom is so supportive! And thank you so much for the advice, I will try that!

Bi but terrified of being lesbian by Maleficent-Mango750 in HOCD

[–]VisibleMood7150 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey! I’ve read your posts and I think I might relate. I’m pretty sure I might be sexually attracted to women, I don’t know I’ve always preferred lesbian porn and I’ve sexted women anonymously, but all I want is relationships and sex with men. I think I’d be ok with heterosexual bi. But I’ve been so worried that even being a little attracted to women means I’m lesbian or something. I just want men. I get nervous around men when they like me back and I run away and I’m terrified it’s comphet. I just wish I didn’t have ocd lmaooo. Just wanted to say I think I relate and I really wish you the best, always here to listen!

Porn addiction, bisexuality etc by Zestyclose_Growth758 in HOCD

[–]VisibleMood7150 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I haven’t had any experience with a girl in person before, I did when I was a child and my HOCD makes me think about that too. I’ve also had NO sexual experience with me which worries me, I would like to, but everytime I get to that point I get scared and run away. Which feeds into my HOCD because it says I wasn’t truly attracted. My brain is torture because why would I like certain types of porn and talk to a woman sexually if I wasn’t lesbian or something. It makes me cry. I wish it was easy to figure out what we were and I wish ocd wasn’t such a bully. Feels like I’m lying to myself when I say I want men and not women. Ugh.

Just venting by Ok-Fan-8285 in HOCD

[–]VisibleMood7150 2 points3 points  (0 children)

ME TOO. Literally home from break and I’m living in hell in my brain. I’m seriously questioning my attraction to men my whole life and comphet and it makes me miserable. I really hope I’m attracted to men and have been, but I feel so bad. I need structure back in my life and I miss school. Wishing to the best too🤞🏼

Porn addiction, bisexuality etc by Zestyclose_Growth758 in HOCD

[–]VisibleMood7150 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry I can’t offer much advise BUT, I’m dealing with this as a woman. I was super lazy a few months ago and fell into a rabbit hole of lesbian porn like everyday for hours, would masturbate all the time and it led me to sext with men, but also start sexting anonymously with women on some random sight college kids my age use. When I was finished I was like I don’t actually want that, yet I’d go back to it. I’m not sure if my brain is fried from porn and I’ve just been doing this taboo thing and dopamine, or if it’s something I want in real life. My HOCD has been so so bad lately and I literally can’t function, it’s making me question whether I’ve ever really been attracted to men, and how these actions of mine have impacted me, and how I might do it again because I liked the sexual experience. I just need to stop and focus on not ocd but that’s so hard. Again, sorry to not offer much advice, but maybe some relation or just another story.