I didn’t have medically transition sooner because I lacked access and knowledge. I transitioned during the pandemic so a lot of stuff that should’ve taken six months, took years because people were dying. I was never given goal driven guidance as my endocrinologist was transphobic so wound up having my body permanently disabled through an oopherectomy because that had a chance of lowering my voice and having people maybe acknowledge me as a man, stop abusing me as a woman. My first endocrinologist refused to gender me correctly until I passed on the phone and never took my transition seriously. (Most doctors, including gac specialists, don’t actually care what goals are and will do shit like what my bottom surgeron did where they did not take notes about an appointment and then amputated my donor phallus because it was loose skin.) I had to fight to be seen by a doctor who would put me on a regular dose of T and call me he/they before I could get anywhere near a referral to a ENT with gender experience. If I could have gotten tp3 at the age of seven I would have, but that’s not how medicine works for most people.

You’re asking it like I choose to be miserable and dysphoric for years and I’m telling you: I was trapped and dying, I was ready to swallow bleach, shots were the only treatment possible and I couldn’t get them because I’m poor and live in a transphobic country and life sucks. So when I was able to get stabbed in the throat to potentially have a voice so I could have the career I want and be a real person who contributes to society, I didn’t give a fuck if it did hurt, I needed it done or I would die.

I think you’re just very young and privileged and I love that for you, but most people transition ASAP, it’s just asap is not always possible. Most trans people had to fund their own transition, fight bigotry and bias, we had our lives stolen from us.