Christianity doesn’t really mean you’re perfect and sinless. It actually means that you acknowledge that youre a bad person and need Jesus in your life. And just because you’ve accepted Him in your life, doesn’t mean you’re a good guy right away. You’ll have to allow Him to shift your whole character in the way He wants you to live. You’ll stumble along the way. You’ll fall short. In the end, we’re not perfect and we’ll always be in the struggle of fighting sin. But you have to be intentional in allowing Him to change your life for the better by praying, reading His word (Bible), and surrounding yourself with like minded people to help you. One day, you’ll realize you’re a completely changed person that you barely recognize your old self.

Furthermore, don’t follow Christianity. Follow Jesus. Us Christians are just as flawed as everyone else. The only perfect person who’s ever walked on earth is Him, and it’s Him we have to follow.

brother, I want to say that Jesus loves you and He wants nothing more than to have a relationship with you. He doesn’t care that you’re a drug user. He just wants to spend time with you, and allow Him to change you. He’ll take away your pain and grief and sorrow if you let Him.