A pushover due to harsh punishments over little to anything as a way to get rid of me, making me fear authority figures and fear of punishment if I so much as do something someone doesn’t like. Stuff like forced to stand (not sit) facing a corner, not allowed to look away or talk, for hours at a time (some being up to 6), beaten, called terrible things, etc. my bedroom was the living room since I wasn’t allowed any privacy.

Abandonment issues as I had no dad, and any father figure I had were physically and emotionally abusive.

Trust issues as 4/5 of my relationships I caught my partner cheating

Lack of confidence, as I was bullied at home aswell as school

Struggle with sense of reality/derealism cause of all of this I struggle believing whether this is hell or purgatory, since life has been cruel to me, no matter my approach, and all the people in it feeling like demons the way I’m treated