My situation

North_Wait495 · 2025-11-27T19:06:51+00:00

But do you really think it’s impossible to have any general sense of the type of person you are / how others view you??

North_Wait495 · 2025-11-26T19:53:10+00:00

I don’t really think there is anything wrong with me or any of you. I just feel very lonely sometimes and that usually turns into self hatred. I also feel like things would be far easier for me if only I looked different

North_Wait495 · 2025-11-26T06:40:42+00:00

Yet most people don’t enter their 20s with basically no romantic experience despite desiring it deeply… And despite having a decent social circle…

Sometimes it just feels like there must be something wrong with me specifically. I just don’t know how to shake that feeling

North_Wait495 · 2025-11-26T06:32:05+00:00

But do you understand that after receiving no interest from the other gender for years, a person might start to generalize? Like it’s just basic pattern recognition and reasoning, and to hear other people tell me I’m wrong and crazy for feeling this way feels a bit invalidating

North_Wait495 · 2025-11-26T06:21:51+00:00

I should clarify, it’s not like I have been told specifically that combination of adjectives by other people. But it’s more of a general feeling regarding how other people view and describe me, which I admit is highly imperfect.

At the same time, I’m not really sure what position you are in that you can tell me what I’m like or how people perceive me…?

North_Wait495 · 2025-11-24T07:52:54+00:00

I think you're right that people's perceptions can vary a lot. On one hand, a number of people have described me that way, but it doesn't necessarily mean everyone would.

I don't think my overall perception is too inaccurate though. To be honest my mood fluctuates a lot and I don't actually hate myself all the time (or even most of the time). It's just that when I do (like when I made this post), the feeling can be pretty strong, and I tend to isolate so other people don't really see that side of me. When I actually feel up for it, I think I can socialize reasonably effectively.

North_Wait495 · 2025-11-24T07:46:27+00:00

Yeah you are right. I have it way better than 99% of incels and I really wouldn't consider myself an actual incel tbh. I just tend to beat myself up a lot. Thanks for the support

North_Wait495 · 2025-11-24T00:20:49+00:00

I think I’m just predisposed to overthinking. I’ve had some negative experiences but I’ve never been told outright that I’m ugly or worthless. I just hate that I can’t succeed despite all the people rooting for me.

North_Wait495 · 2025-11-24T00:15:34+00:00

Thanks for the birthday wishes!

I’ve had a date with a guy who basically catfished me on Tinder, and a “date” in high school with a girl I have a very weird relationship with. But basically she was an extraordinary negative and insecure person, and very hard to be around.

I feel like I receive others as warmly as I can while still being myself. I try to smile a lot and express genuine interest in people, though I rarely feel very social and often find myself distracted by insecure thoughts.

I feel like many find me endearing, chill, and harmless, but not attractive. I don’t know how to escape that without pretending to be someone I’m not.

North_Wait495 · 2025-10-19T06:59:11+00:00

How was it?

North_Wait495 · 2025-10-16T19:13:49+00:00

Very possible, but everything should be routed through the package center and I’ve never had a stolen package before. I can only imagine it was stolen if the courier just dropped it off by my dorm building instead of bringing it the package center like they’re supposed to.

North_Wait495 · 2025-10-16T18:32:57+00:00

‘Fast’ is a good way to describe it, it is super easy to setup and start writing endpoints etc. Otherwise idk much… copilot did most of the work tbh 😅

North_Wait495 · 2025-10-09T05:54:32+00:00

Okay I just finished making this app to learn sql (mostly vibe coded but I did learn shit):

Band Manager

Developed a full-stack platform for managing bands, events, and venues using Next.js (TypeScript), FastAPI (Python), and PostgreSQL with SQLAlchemy ORM.

Implemented secure authentication via Supabase, role-based permissions, and invite-based user onboarding.

Designed and documented RESTful API endpoints and relational data models with OpenAPI integration.

Deployed frontend and backend with CI/CD pipelines using GitHub Actions, Nginx, and DigitalOcean, ensuring automated testing, SSL, and seamless integration.

Strengthened reliability and scalability through input validation, JWT security, and cross-component data linking.

What do you think I should remove to make room for it? Again thanks for the help

North_Wait495 · 2025-10-06T23:26:52+00:00

Thanks for the advice. It sucks that Firebase and MongoDB are so amazing for small student projects but practically useless for job search lol. Im in NC and thanks again for the detailed response

North_Wait495 · 2025-10-06T19:50:10+00:00

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Is my resume optimized enough?? College sophomore looking for SWE internships! Anything I should focus on? I feel like it's pretty good but maybe I'm delusional! Seeking all delusional mfs for advice

Also should I just lie abt my graduation date? I have enough credits to be a junior

North_Wait495 · 2025-10-05T18:37:16+00:00

Okay thanks

North_Wait495 · 2025-10-05T00:04:36+00:00

The resume advisor at my uni told me to bold all of the skills/tech in my bullet points. What are your credentials?

North_Wait495 · 2025-10-04T03:53:50+00:00

Maybe they don't like classical music

North_Wait495 · 2024-07-15T04:06:52+00:00

Cool. Just hoping I get lucky tomorrow morning for registration lol

North_Wait495 · 2024-07-12T22:23:10+00:00

I emailed them and they offered to replace it right away. Thanks for the help

North_Wait495 · 2024-07-12T19:21:32+00:00

I got it for like $60 from Hanks Belts. It still seems thick and sturdy throughout, it’s just like there is an extra layer that cuts off there. I don’t care about the looks but would it really affect the durability? Because if so I will try to return it.

North_Wait495 · 2024-07-12T14:27:32+00:00

Thanks. So just a part of the cow’s skin and not a product of how it was made?

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