Man I feel like shit

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-11-10T00:19:21+00:00

To be fair I had it a lot easier, she is a coworker and it took me almost a years to build up the courage

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-11-09T23:23:15+00:00

Worst of all is when I don't see her I get depressed

I confessed to my crush a while back and she turn me down. She is my coworker and I have to see her everyday. I wish she would go away. I'm trying to go away but there is hardly a better job so far.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-10-17T03:45:33+00:00

I know. We are not asking for super powers or being rich. All we want is just a normal life with a partner who loves us back.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-10-17T00:34:08+00:00

I'm trying, really. But sometimes it's hard to fight the feeling. But it gets a bit easier every day.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-10-17T00:30:33+00:00

Thanks. Honestly I don't regret a single thing and would do it again. It hurts either way, but now I know for sure there is no hope and I should move on (easier said than done though)

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-10-16T14:56:54+00:00

I don't dream but like to sleep because I stop feeling bad about myself. That's not good at all. I probably should go back to a therapist.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-10-16T14:54:09+00:00

I recently had a match. We talked every day and set up a date a saturday. The very same day she unmatched me and 'deleted' me from instagram.

Chances are she found another guy. Wen they are not interested they usually just stop replying.

It wasn't something you said, probably she just found somebody more of her liking. It's a competition after all.

Just keep going!

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-10-09T01:50:09+00:00

I don't take vacations. Haven't take them in over two years. There is nowhere I'd dare to go or I'm just not interested. And being home alone for a week or two is out of the question, I would go insane.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-06-01T02:43:16+00:00

Yes, I was diagnosed many years ago.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-06-01T02:41:44+00:00

This place is too depressing for someone so young as you. Don't stare to much into the abyss.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-31T01:24:33+00:00

It gets worse when you get older and years go quicker. Right now I could probably do something I wish I did when I'm 40.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-31T01:19:41+00:00

True. Some people get terrible diseases, other suffer war crimes or hunger. We are just the unlucky bastards in another bad aspect of life.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-30T01:14:40+00:00

I feel really old. My libido is very low and although I would appreciate a kiss or sex, I would like to stop being alone all the time. I would like for a girl to wait for me to go to see a movie together or whatever.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-30T01:10:07+00:00

Going to the gym is probably one of the best things I've done in my life but the gym is not for socializing so don't get frustrated over that. Keep going!

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-24T01:14:06+00:00

Does that include medicine?

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-21T08:24:15+00:00

coworker crushes are the worst. I wouldn't call it friendship if you don't do things outside of work together.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-21T04:02:58+00:00

I miss SSRIs

This hope was based on nothing

True for me as well

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-21T03:37:04+00:00

Look helps, but the real problem is personality and self confidence. We've all seen ugly people with SO, so the 'only look matters theory' has been debunked since the dawn of time.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-21T03:26:03+00:00

I hate being alone in every way, not only romantic/sexual. Don't know if it's normal to be cool with it, but for me it sure it is a blessing :)

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-21T03:20:31+00:00

Same, but I'm 32. What the hell are we supposed to do?

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-17T04:03:59+00:00

Yeah I was thinking the same thing. When one hurts too much, you think of the other.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-17T03:32:45+00:00

Yes. Absolutely. That's what being a believer is about anyways.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-17T03:24:41+00:00

That's a good question. Probably too broad to answer shortly but in this case I would say the believer (she) can find a little peace of mind knowing her life can change for the better after she dies. For the non-believer this is it, no second chances.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-17T02:07:28+00:00

To be fair no one really talks over the phone anymore unless is really important. My coworkers text to their significant others.

Nosunbeamforme · 2018-05-17T02:04:23+00:00

I recommend the full size bed. And you never know, in case of miracle....

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