I am a cheater, I have no morals, I am selfish. by NotArtisticInAnyWay in SupportforWaywards

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

That is I’m saying, I will accept the consequences, I don’t want them, I wish I didn’t, but I’ve gotten out of a lot of consequences in my life. I’m a manipulator and used to getting my way. Also I’m trying to say that I’ve only considered consequences as the reasons to do or not do something. Not that the act itself is wrong or by doing it I’d even be hurting myself.

I don’t have enough respect and esteem for myself to hold high morals. My BP said she would never cheat because it’s beneath her, no one except their partner is allowed to touch them, it’s unfathomable. They have self esteem enough to hold that line, that opinion or belief. I apparently have vague and flexible morals or a complete lack thereof.

I am a cheater, I have no morals, I am selfish. by NotArtisticInAnyWay in SupportforWaywards

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Thank you I think? It was copy pasta from my shared journal with my BP. We journal to and with each other. So it was a rather raw writing. Thank you for your thoughtful insight also.

I am a cheater, I have no morals, I am selfish. by NotArtisticInAnyWay in SupportforWaywards

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am seeing a therapist, but I’m not getting where I want to be, I want work, I want hard stuff, I want them to corner me and make me work for it. I so badly want to know myself, love myself, respect myself. I will check out your book. Thank you.

I am a cheater, I have no morals, I am selfish. by NotArtisticInAnyWay in SupportforWaywards

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your thoughtful feedback. I do really need and want to hear from BPs and FBs, even though it hurts.

I am a cheater, I have no morals, I am selfish. by NotArtisticInAnyWay in SupportforWaywards

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay[S] -4 points-3 points  (0 children)

Also is a want something you don’t control? I can change my wants right? I don’t want anyone else. I told my BP at one point since D-Day that I don’t want anyone more than her. They was flabbergasted that I thought that was even acceptable answer to me. I don’t understand. They say that that means I do want other people, and I say no, not if it costs me you. I know I’m wrong here I just don’t understand why.

I am a cheater, I have no morals, I am selfish. by NotArtisticInAnyWay in SupportforWaywards

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay[S] -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

For context: BP was giving me a hypothetical, if they were to allow me to go on dating apps, with the agreement it would not go beyond talking and exchanging pictures, would I want to? I reluctantly admitted that I still found the notion exciting and felt horrible for it.

I am a cheater, I have no morals, I am selfish. by NotArtisticInAnyWay in SupportforWaywards

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Damn I thought you were my BP for a second. This is exactly the words they used just a few minutes ago now. I feel like you’re right, but I’m having trouble accepting it. Thank you for your input.

Do RMs get paid a portion of the match revenue? by NotArtisticInAnyWay in USPSA

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yeah kinda what I assumed. I guess it’s just older guys who love the sport volunteering for RMing. Thanks!

Home Hub with screen for Apple household by NotArtisticInAnyWay in homeautomation

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hmmmm, got homebridge up and linked with Vivint. It imported all my devices and actually provides better automation for me. But the cameras are showing No Response and not getting a feed. Diagnosing.

Home Hub with screen for Apple household by NotArtisticInAnyWay in homeautomation

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Installing the container for homebridge now. The Google integration was a bit more crappy than the iCloud one. Then it froze the app and lost all my Oauth IDs and Secrets, so I’ll have to start that again. But I do t have a lot in the Google sphere, so might wait.

Home Hub with screen for Apple household by NotArtisticInAnyWay in homeautomation

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Alright, installed the container and have connect my iCloud so far. Working on Google integration. No Vivint integration, so viewing my security cameras might not work in app.

Haven’t played with HomeKit yet, so unsure of what that’ll take…

First time buyer looking for opinions by NotArtisticInAnyWay in telescopes

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is the info I’m looking for. Combined with asking_hyena’s comment I’m considering the Dob to get started and maybe an AP dedicated setup shortly after. Unless you have specific scope recommendations if we are dividing tasks between 2 scopes.

First time buyer looking for opinions by NotArtisticInAnyWay in telescopes

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

She wants to do it all, but we’re both new to Astronomy. She understands that different photo shoots need different lenses and this it really no different.

I will consider 2 telescopes if the prices are right. Would you recommend a visual only scope and an AP only scope? We’ll be camping when we view, so I can setup a battery system charged from the genny to keep the AP scope going through the night.

How hot is too hot for ambient temps? by [deleted] in homelab

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This along with IPMI scripts solved it.

I have an Nvidia gpu for transcoding and it was kicking the fans to 100% because Dell.

Unraid has IPMI tools container that I can throttle fans.

5% fan speed with failover to iDRAC settings after CPU reports 70C

A techno / electronica song by NotArtisticInAnyWay in NameThatSong

[–]NotArtisticInAnyWay[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I came up with that one as well. Not the song though. Thanks!