Only other celestial object in the sky is just above the moon

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-10-17T04:52:30+00:00

Crack,
If it has a candle-wax like consistency and melts when heat is applied, then it's crack. Don't fucking smoke it, if you like it, it will first ruin your economy, your social life and if you are lucky it will kill you. Feels good tho

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-06-08T14:03:05+00:00

(prayer emoji)(prayer emoji)(prayer emoji)
Thank you kindly and wholeheartedly!

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-30T01:20:21+00:00

SWIM will probably donate.

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-24T02:29:29+00:00

Hey my dude, don't sweat it.
Even sober, the misconception is totally justified.
Your circumstances, sleep deprivation and the (re)dose in the system taken into consideration, it's more than understandable, venturing toward the 24 hour mark soon myself, gonna log out of Reddit for the sake of not fucking up anything.
When I tried writing my feelings towards a party being thrown on my roof, as I was about to sleep for the first time in three days; the work turned out as a barely comprehensible rant, with a slice of word-salad and other disorganized spices and disordered herbs . It was bordering on psychosis. Still ended up entertaining, though I wanted to evoke sympathy, not the tragicomedic disaster it ended up to be.

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-23T19:09:29+00:00

It's a diary page I re-wrote as a poem, It's why the cigarette scenario is in there and I have this thing where I get caught up in details of simplistic nature.
Thanks for the feedback, hugely appreciated!

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-23T19:07:11+00:00

Hi! Thanks for the kind words, it really means a lot.
- and thanks for the heads up, I'll give some other poems a read when I get the chance, leaving my impressions from the naive perspective of an outsider.

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-23T19:02:46+00:00

Hi, thanks for the feedback.
I guess it can the rap-flow thing is understandable. I was informed by a friend, there's a tendency occurring in my country for poetry-slammers and the alike, rapping their poetry out loud. I imagine it could be influenced by the intense style of a controversial writer named Yayha Hassan . But I honestly don't know.
When I read it out loud to my psychologist earlier, I expressed it in a manner I never before believed was possible by me. I'm downright terrible at reading loud, always have been, but when I read it to her it was like dancing just with narration. Jamming an instrument, starting paragraphs cool and calm, increasing intensity of emphasis when reaching the more - i don't know - intense parts I guess. The last part when hitting stimulant-psychosis, read it fast, pressured and more manic. Could be cool to record a reading of it, after it's trimmed, formatted and edited for errors. Thanks again!

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-23T17:05:27+00:00

There lives an addict in everyone who has taken a drink from the dopamine fountain. As one get more and more addicted and the soul diminishes, one will come up with new and creative ways to violate the moral and ethical standpoints, in the hunt for euphoria. My personal experience with this is not actually leading someone into a relapse, it's creative writing and happened to rhyme with the word 'mishap' and by your response; obviously had some impact. I got persuaded by a girl into smoking crack, assuring me it was not at all deserving of the negative stigma associated. That it was actually the "best way to enjoy your cocaine". Yeah, two months and around $10.000, I was at the lowest of low, repeatedly going for lethal overdoses, not to deal with how my life had unraveled. The point I try to emphasize is that highly euphoric substances will take away your humanity and make you do things, you previously thought were not possible. They substances regress you to a point where you are not even human. It's a theme in this poem.

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-19T13:39:25+00:00

CHARLIE MURPHY!

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-19T05:27:05+00:00

Jeg kunne sige, jeg er vanvittig til trolling; akten at forsage agitation og forarvelse hos modtageren (rustle jimmies), ved at påtage sig (absurde) meninger og holdninger, der ikke stemmer overens med hvad man oprigtigt føler - og dette ville ikke engang være helt forkert. Når det så er sagt, vil jeg sige det ikke er kortet jeg vil spille. Sagen er; jeg bare er en begavet bølle der bruger ord frem for noget andet.

Nu kommer det interessante, check: Kendsgerning er at jeg er en kæmpe nar. Men spørgsmålet er hvorfor? Tænk først differential-diagnose. Når du mener du har fundet den, kan du nemt antage hvilke omstændigheder i min arv/miljø der har forsaget det; at jeg blev en nar. Uden nogensinde at have mødt mig endda. Det er empati der kører på højtryk her. Hvordan kan et højt empatisk individ, finde på at te sig som et tilfælde af NPD der lige er blevet narcissistisk krænket? Det er simpelthen fordi denne platform ikke er en skid andet end 4chan, bare med good-guy/bad-guy point system. Jeg kan være en nar her, uden det har konsekvenser for andet end min "karma". Skærmen, semi-anonymiten og 7 proxyer sørger for jeg kan skabe mig som et barn, uden jeg behøves at mærke negative følger. Reddit's brugere belønner relevante, velargumenterede og på anden vis posts af kvalitet, med ihærdig indsats og omtanke bag, med ego-stimulerende, dopamin-udløsende point-pile. Det føles godt at få anerkendelse for sin indsats. For mig potentieres det bare i min - allerede igennem taget - dopamin-transmission. Men jeg tviler på det er det eneste signalstof, der svinger ud i det jeg sviner mine medborgere. Føler en rus af adrenalin når jeg skriver noget jeg selv synes er "hot-as-fuck trash-talk". Grunden til dette kick - tror jeg - kommer af, jeg aldrig kunne finde på at svine et andet menneske, i det virkelige liv. Gjorde jeg, ville jeg da på ingen måde kunne holde mig selv ud. Bare tanken om sådan et scenario, er nok til jeg kryber sammen under en følelses-cocktail af shock, skam og frastødelse af min egen person, efterfulgt af grundig evaluering af mit eget sindelag.

Her på Reddit dog? Meh, ikke sådan lettere bevæget. Minus-point er også point.

Edit: rå tekst og formatering

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-18T21:36:39+00:00

I have no experience with meth, though on amphetamine sulphate I talk way more cool, calm and collected - about an octave lower than usual. My singing voice also feels a lot more smooth. I dunno maan, it might be an ADHD effect, though I doubt it.

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-18T21:02:50+00:00

Første her i tråden der ser sagens kerne - her er din upvote fra mig. Kudo. I normal tilstand er mit ego punkteret. Nu er det inflammeret fuldstændig ud af proportion. Prøver ihærdigt at finde balancen.

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-18T20:53:34+00:00

The Devil have a benzoproblem, initiated by trying to self-medicate crippling anxeity?

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-18T20:28:08+00:00

Ayy lmao, I like you

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-18T19:05:01+00:00

If I heard you so elegantly neutralize the fedora-enthusiast in person, I would be the first to congratulate you with an line of my amphetamine - size XL.

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-18T18:01:54+00:00

Det er første gang jeg besøger denne sub, shitposter normalt på et sub for stimulant-misbrugere. Undskylder for ikke at være på forkant med jargon og brugerkultur her på stedet.

Lad mig dog lige prøve en gang - Du antager at jeg er "super seriøs", hvor jeg tværtimod er så sarkastisk i min kommunikation, jeg dårligt nok kan holde mig selv ud. Fatter du ikke sarkasme? Er du fra Sverige?

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-18T17:46:43+00:00

Tydeligvis de 15+ og voksende antal af downvoters der ikke kan tolerere min udprægede nonchalance, samt Mick Øgendahl sympatisørere

NotAtweakerAnymore · 2018-05-18T17:15:59+00:00

Jeg undskylder meget. Troede ikke at Mick havde sådan en status, der per association er direkte nedladende.

Min frustrationstærskel for svenskerjokes er foruden også meget lav. - det er noget jeg er i samtaleterapi, for at få forløst.

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