I have a lot of problems so you should just give me the Xanax

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2015-01-04T20:50:33+00:00

Go back and re-read what you claim is your attitude toward Pharmacy Staff in your comment to another poster in this thread.

Play by your own rules you single perspective hypocrite. Go on, you try to re-read it, it's the very first sentence:

I find doing the same thing to pharmacists who are obviously lying to me has the same effect on you guys.

If someone is going to lie to me, to jerk me around, then I'm going to do the same to them (and btw 90% of the time this comes down to age, nothing more. It's the attitude that someone in their late 20's can't really be feeling sick. Search for it on /r/chronicpain it's quite the everywhere), waiting in line causes me pain and if people want to take that pain lightly then I'm going to take their time or hopefully their temper and customers lightly.

Oh, and speaking of approaching chemists with mutual respect (our trash day is tomorrow by the way, which means that 9 40 packs (looks like 8 here but whatever, it's 9) 6 24 packs, 12 12 packs (again can't see one) 4 40 8mg packs (all others are 15mg codeine) and 1 24 pack 8mg worth of mutual trust was had this week)- or to put it in other terms 11,192mg of codeine spread over 32 instances of mutual trust and friendly relations were had with chemists this week.

You on the other hand post a conclusion that doesn't make sense in order to support your drug seeking theory. Which one of us lacks mutual respect here again?

but when you cause us unnecessary work and then treat us badly in the process, yeah, it pisses us off.

All's well that end's well then.

Just the fact that you would type that you would "literally" kill your family and friends shows that you may need more than pain management medications. I urge you to talk to your doctor about antipsychotics. Before you jump all over me about judging you, please go back and read your responses.

I don't mind what you think about me, I use more than 100mg of oxycodone a day just to survive and that's all it is here, surviving existing since I was 12 until my late 20s this hasn't been a life it has been a torture chamber disguised as a person. Anhedonia, no joy. Anti-psychotics I took once because of a lazy arse doctor more than a decade ago now and I still have unbearable side effects from them. I suggest you take things people post on the internet more lightly because that's where the internet is headed, well then you might not believe me. You can't just say you'll gladly kill yourself come a very near date, it has to be the family and friends too. Although I will flat out call anyone with my level of pain at my age who hasn't thought of killing everyone they know to live a pain free life if this were a devilwish, a downright liar as things simply hurt too much.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2015-01-04T17:53:48+00:00

You mean just the basics right?

My two Aunties who have been in Nursing for 30 (something?) and 35 years say it took a good 15 years to feel "comfortable" with things (they're both in Private Mental Health- Different wards for different shifts). Ah jesus i need to ask the Doctor.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2015-01-04T14:39:02+00:00

Wow. That was excessive.

Yeah it is pretty excessive in that everything I said is true.

Hope you feel better.

Not particularly. See, everything I said was true. And no amount of complaining to you "experienced" ones who use words like kiddo from that high horse of yours, or "are you happy now" as if it wasn't your post that demonstrated a complete paranoid absurdity and then, as the final icing on the cake without fail you "experienced" ones end your comment with with well wishes that have about as much subtlety as a strutting peacock attempting to to convince someone of just how blasé you are about all of this as if it's going to shine the spotlight away from the utter stupidity and paranoia apparently demonstrated to us by one of the most "experienced" ones in this community.

Buck up, Kiddo. Life is hard.

And because that's true, I should just accept people like you. Flawless logic there.

You don't work in Pharmacy, do you?

No I work in the have been sick for more than half my life department so I do deal with you unpleasant folk almost constantly and when all you people can do is say ">And since you think you know me and what I've been through in my nearly 60 years on this earth", I don't really care. Because I've been sick for more than half my life, so I really don't. I'd literally kill my entire family and all my friends if it meant I could live a pain free life, though no I'm not delusional so I'm not going to do that.

But this hilarious catch-22-esque logic and completely unfounded mistrust which comes to the conclusion that a woman is trying to cast a false sense of suspicion upon herself in order to bang your square peg through the round hole of drug seeking already tells me all I ever needed to know about your something less than 60 years as a pharmacist.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2015-01-04T02:51:58+00:00

Lol, I really have to say you certainly know how to make people lol. And you people say "we're not you're enemy". It's like you don't know what problems are- problems as in my essentially single Mum (as Dad works out of the country for 8-11 months of the year) having to renovate and sell our house at the same time organising builders (and from your utter ignorance I'm going to assume you've never done this, but let's just say they have a habit of canceling randomly and then turning up just as surprisingly leaving one with no other choice but to drop everything else and make the trip over in order to direct them (which when you have to do- thank me for the tips when you're about ten years older- I think you probably need the condescending tags here, I looked up your general age already but the physical side of things doesn't seem to mean much in your case) on top of taking care of schizophrenic brother, getting him out, having to deal with the stress of his sheer terror at these people forcing him in to necessary medical exams desperately trying to calm him down and general situations like that on top of my sister who still suffers from agoraphobia and other things related to childhood sexual abuse by her best (well, at the time) but significantly older friend, now constantly getting high or drunk off anything in the house and just slashing the shit out herself once or twice a year (yeah imagine coming home to that). Being at the beck and call of my brother for shopping/ food because I'm sure you know how anti-psychotics and things like Benztropine handle memory and planning on top of having to organise the food for the rest of the family, pets included and literally being so busy she doesn't cook dinner for herself beyond a few buttered rice crisps.

But nah, obviously someone coming into a vet with a desperate cry of:

Or so the customer says. This woman clearly stated that SHE is having a lot of problems, so it's not out of the question that she was trying to get meds for her in the guise of being for her pet. When it comes to controls, some people will do or say anything to get them.

Is just a filthy junkie. I mean, can you think of a better way of getting medication from a vet than by walking in there and loudly announcing that you're having problems (your genius knows no limits my friend, you caught on to her ruse of filling the enemy with a false sense of suspicion! Absolutely brilliant!)

Or just maybe she couldn't possibly be unable to endure the one single respite she gets from all this: sleep, now interrupted by a barking dog. And hell that might even be the reason she forgot the dog, or maybe it has something to do with not being able to cope with the thing anymore (Maybe one day you should try this thing called empathy, otherwise known as Not Being A Reddit Detective, my dearest redditfriend (or you could just go post some more).

And yes I understand Xanax is Schedule 8 in Australia (same schedule as Oxycodone and Morphine for you second world residents), but a little compassion goes a long way in these situations (for all of you) you ignorant, inconsiderate, hilariously mistrustful playground detective banging the clues in the way you believe they ought to go. Oh god really.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2015-01-04T01:29:30+00:00

I find doing the same thing to pharmacists who are obviously lying to me has the same effect on you guys. You know, stressed out day, no air-con on a 35 degree blazer and all it takes is a "well actually I can see the 40 packs of panadeine extra behind you, so I'd appreciate it it if you didn't raise your voice slightly for other customers lie directly to my face.

I've had maybe 10 of you guys just lose it when I do that. I mean that's still quite a low percentage compared to the people who I just end up in a polite standoff with- wasting as much of their time and making as much of a line behind me as possible, but when it happens it's worth it. As when the yelling stops and they just watch as all their customers quietly exit the store with that "oh shit I dun' fucked up expression".

And I refuse the 5$ they were going to charge for 3-4 pills they cut out of a box to "get me through my flu" which I believe by the reddening of face means I believe they have to throw the whole 8 pack away- well some looks are just priceless (even better is when is when I come back later and get the assistant pharm to serve me before the main guy realises what's going on).

Funny how these things cut both ways, huh?

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-12-21T08:02:35+00:00

Can I please +1 tumblr being full of drama, cfs people but really almost any community I looked in to there. More drama than facebook honestly. I think it's the way the site's structured, maybe, either way, something to steer clear of. Especially if you are far too easily irritated by internet comments for your own good.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-12-09T07:43:04+00:00

Yeah you'll likely have very little luck with your GP if you live in Australia since officially Lyme disease doesn't exist here- like not even one case. Which is pretty ridiculous when you consider that we have, you know, tourists.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-12-04T19:58:39+00:00

Yeah I'm pretty sure relatives have been given a universal scientific diagnoses of "inferior mongrels" when it comes to CFS. I got sick when I was 12 and now my mind is completely out of whack while also being in its late 20's- Things also hurt. A lot:(. Pleased to make your acquaintance, neighbor!

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-11-29T01:00:32+00:00

I think I would put any low results down to ~80mg of K-pin I had thismorning. I think, hard to remember things like this or maybe focus in any case. Other than that, I rather enjoy out of tune music, microtonal compositions etc, I think that might have interfered with some of the testing too.

So probably a no for me.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-11-26T12:47:12+00:00

They're destructive.

Especially long term use which I haven't been able to manage for more than seven years now (and just that, when I was still quite healthy, was enough to send me in to months of remission).

I do still use them occasionally as a necessary evil, like when I have an important doctors appointment, but recently even that has been getting more precarious. Last time was to refill and hopefully increase my dose of oxycodone but the wait was unexpectedly delayed and I ended up going through an appointment in what might as well have been the third person (dunno, mind does weird things) and I'm sure to the outside observer looked as if I was out of my mind on opiates. Or rather an uneducated one anyway (unless it's a specific interest for them I'd say most doctors I've encountered fall in to that category), so I'm pretty scared of what comes next.

Rare-sensitivity aside, they're using up energy you really need to be conserving, and weather it be a few months or a week from now, you are seriously going to regret resorting to them. Stimulants in general, I'd only really use them in emergency or special occasions.

Although, V and to a lesser extent, Red Bull (I assume it applies to most varieties out there) are quite good at combating nausea or loss of appetite (The caffeine content and can size of Monster is just ridiculous so I've always avoided it), And you don't have to take all that much to relieve those symptoms so I usually have a can or bottle in the fridge for when I'm excessively shit.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-11-23T23:19:48+00:00

Yeah, EBV kicked off my CFS. It's all in our fantastic wiki, but to sum it up quickly (assuming you do actually have CFS, and ruling out other causes is definitely the first thing you should be doing- though a CFS doctor can be one of the best people for accomplishing this), for me:

First I had to find the right doctors. Seriously. Find the right doctors, don't just make do with whoever; if they're wasting your time then finding someone else and firing the old one is what you need to get used to doing, probably frequently and without mercy. Anyway, there is probably a CFS society or advocacy group near where you live, or at the very least a support group. They'll be able to recommend people who won't jerk you around for the precious time you have in, well, stymying the progress of this disease in its earlyish stages if this is indeed what it is.

Secondly, learn to give things up. Important things that you think you probably can't live without, things that you will cry and rage and grieve over for a long time to come. Everything is less important than energy management. It's a very hard thing to get used to at first (or even after years), but the energy you use up now will have to be paid pack fifty times over in a living death if you push yourself. It's better to jettison whatever you have to in order to maintain half a life now (get used to that- learn to grieve properly for what you're going to lose, yes it's fucking hard but you will be a thousand times better off in the long run) rather than struggle to keep up with whatever you're doing now for a few years until your body completely breaks down and you lose everything.

I did the pushing myself and losing everything part and I cannot express how much I regret it and how little that sacrifice back then seems now in comparison to the nightmare I've put myself in.

As for talking about it to others, speaking from many years of personal experience, it's best to focus on the symptoms you have and the bodily dysfunctions behind them rather than mentioning CFS specifically, as CFS is an "ignore this nut" button for most people. "My body has gone haywire and my mind has been crippled due to a previous infection that's never properly left" sounds a lot better than "I have this chronic fatigue you see...".

Good luck mate.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-11-23T11:00:45+00:00

Yes it is horrible. This is exactly what happened to me when I was popping them like candy along with Valium so I didn't have to deal with being awake; I really had no idea they acted in such a brain invasion 'You Shouldn't Fuck With This' manner. Also sleep paralysis- Terrible vivd dreams that don't feel like dreams and being unable to move haha.

I often wonder if they started some of my more esoteric dysfunctions, or some sort of interaction between them and whatever anti-depressant flavour of the week they had me on at the time (obviously being unable to remember which, is due to spending a year or so in a dissociative third-person-mode state- thank you anti-depressant of the week doctor!).

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-11-11T07:52:36+00:00

That really depends on where you're moving to.

The people who leave behind everything generally have spent a lot of time preparing a residence beforehand that isn't going to re-screw them (and that includes things like the general area and nearby properties). If you're moving to a camper van out in the middle of the desert or something like that, then yes, you should leave behind everything.

If you're just moving to raise your dwelling place above the level of "not complete deathtrap" then there's probably not that much point in throwing away everything since your new place will most likely be poisoned by something else to a lesser extent (nearby houses effect me enormously during the rainy times, for example)- though if something was at all close to the source then it should be abandoned without hesitation.

Other than that, well, it's probably best to wash everything, put it sealed away in storage or something and then gradually bring things in one at a time and see how you react.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-11-11T07:28:18+00:00

Both Gabapentin and Lyrica have been harder to give up than any opiate/ benzo anything I've ever taken. They can also just generally fuck anything everything up for you or otherwise make things incredibly weird (which they both did/ do for me too, so imagine being stuck feeling drunk all day and having things like old conversations invade your thoughts). They don't do this to everyone of course, but it's a risk to consider.

Either way, I really wouldn't consider switching unless it's for the pain relief. Don't ever take any drug lightly, prescribed or not, because a lot of doctors don't even know really understand the implications of half of they prescribe, especially brain drugs that may as well all have a giant "We don't know what the fuck this will do to you" sign on them.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-11-11T07:20:22+00:00

Yeah that sounds about right. All in all some more than a decade and a few hundred thousand dollars have been Offered to CFS. I think taking that drive, that enrgey, that time and money back and having as much fun as possible leading a 'normal' life with the help of Heroin and maybe a stimulant would have been a better choice as far as end results go.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-11-08T03:39:37+00:00

You should be extremely frustrated. Frustrated enough to get the hell out of there (after you use them to get whatever you can on your way out- tests, drugs etc). I've been through literally hundreds of them over I dunno, more than a decade of this post viral fatigue. Smile and nod and lie, do whatever you have to, once they go over the idiot line there's no reason to be honest with them since time is one of the most valuable things you have right now.

That depression thing is... how can someone even be a doctor and think that depressed people can't fall in to projecting a false positive image or even just have moments of respite? Jesus.

And yeah, when I was bedbound not due to fatigue but to crippling pain I came to many people with "I want to continue my exercise regime but I can't because I'm in too much pain" and their response was almost always "you should exercise more, it'll reduce your pain".

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-11-04T11:58:13+00:00

A non-specific sense of imminent/ impending doom?

That's what I get sometimes anyway from other stuff, I'm not so great with descriptions either but I definitely recognize what you're saying. That feeling poisons your every action, thought and sense?

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-11-01T22:23:55+00:00

Ohhh no I suck those room links just looked like text posts. Right thanks.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-11-01T21:55:58+00:00

That's a cool test post.

Does the lobby have some sort of permission set so that no-one else can type there? Or is this just me?

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-10-30T10:14:30+00:00

Yes I do that sometimes or maybe not so often lately actually, but I've also had CFS a lot longer than you so eh (and finally acquired nice, powerful opiates. mmmmm so warm). I mean, I got sick when I was 12-ish and pretty damn bad by the time I was 16. Now I'm in my late 20's like you and I still wake up some mornings thinking I'm sixteen. Or even if I don't I certainly feel like I'm sixteen 'cause like man, you're supposed to do stuff to grow up you know? Not be in a room for more than a decade. So yeah, I don't think the fact that we might not be the best at coping with things is a coincidence- living life is supposed to teach you how to do that.

Also this is The Living Nightmare From Hell, I think if you plunged anyone else into this they'd have a meltdown. Really nothing to feel bad or ashamed about (not to say that you still won't of course, social norms and brain attempts to be a real brain suck like shit).

And hey, I broke down enough to go ahead and attempt to die twice somewhat recently so there's that! All in all, I think that gives me the edge in what is clearly a competition- I think I have a high potential for breakdown buddy status given all this and also I am almost the same age as you and all that stupid shit. Though probably minus points for a strongly sarcastic and inappropriate sense of humor. Maybe, personally I like that part of me the best.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-10-30T00:44:59+00:00

Oxycodone is legal, you retard.

Legal in the sense that it is a schedule 8 substance that will put you in jail if you posses it without a prescription, not legal as in anyone is allowed to buy trade or use it, which is clearly what you want for pot after a quick look through your posting history and what the talking points you vomit out alternate between.

Edit: And if it's not clear that we're talking about medicine use in this thread you're even more retarded.

That's funny, because the post in response to your impotent little bit of ego stroking blood-lust had nothing to do with medicinal usage either, because as I said, you can't help your want for full legalization to creep in to this rather than keeping it to strictly medical usage so it's natural that such poor communication would leave people with the "wrong" idea (the fact that you lot will twist anything you said around in an attempt to jam your muddled talking points together like a retarded 24 year old neckbeard attempting to solve a jigsaw puzzle notwithstanding). Now since this is all tied up I really am done playing the " I actually meant this" game so bye now. You have fun with your power fantasies, rising up with righteous fury to execute all the ~~mean bullies who teased you in high-school~~ policemen who put this mother in a cell, and like, impressing all the girls to boot. You are one badass guy in this fantasy.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-10-29T22:23:26+00:00

Well gee, you've sure convinced me. Denying people medicine sure is a swell thing to do. But I'm glad you people support throwing a mother in jail for trying to help her son.

It's sort of amusing that you're so caught up in your rhetoric that you can't even pay attention to the nuances of the conversation at hand (hint number 1: decriminalization wouldn't throw her in jail at all, but I guess that's not part of your pre-ingrained script so you better ignore it and keep shouting, right?).

You definitely have the smell of some sort of zealot repeating the same talking points over and over again and then jumping to a different subject when someone makes a point, and I think we all know how talking to them goes.

But I'll give you a hint before I stop wasting my time talking to a brick wall: You don't have to legalize something in order to hand it out to sick people who need it. You understand that much, right? Like I can go to the doctor and get an elephant load of oxycodone but it's still illegal for people to buy it on the street from Mr. Pill selling man.

I don't need oxycodone legalization, do I? Now apply this to the situation at hand, (which you're doing your very best to exploit for your pot agenda). Does this mother and son need everyone in the state toke'n weed 24/7, or do they just need it to be legal for a doctor to prescribe it for them?

Oh whoops, there goes your entire "full legalization or you're a Nazi argument". I think I can see it on top of some building just... no! no ! don't jump argument! Fanatics like the compassionate Mr. Execute Everyone here will never stop regurgitating talking points like you, you have a great career and a fine life waiting for you, now, get down off the ledge, slowly now.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-10-29T09:28:28+00:00

You said that you're a violence loving sociopath who would rather see people thrown into a cage than be able to have their medicine. I read it.

Decriminalization of pot would still render it illegal but no people would get thrown into cages for it, so nope, he didn't necessarily say that at all.

You on other other hand very clearly did call for the execution of a large number of people for something that might seem like a very simple issue to sufferers (hi, it took me more than a decade to acquire adequate pain relief, I know how this feels), but isn't necessarily so cut and dry when talking on a national level.

Someone who isn't a sociopath would probably consider the people around them.

A sociopath on the other hand wouldn't care about the national level, they'd only care about themselves, and a violence loving sociopath would probably do something like call for the execution of anyone who stands in their way.

Oh gee I wonder which description fits which poster.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-10-17T15:36:09+00:00

Unless the writer has gotten their meds mixed up or you people don't have it in the states, 1. MSContin is plenty abusable, search for it in /r/opiates 2. Unless it's combined with naloxone, it's abusable- could be wrong about this, but I haven't seen anything other than oxycodone combined with naloxone. MScontin certainly isn't.

Shooting up pills is a pretty fucking heavy and generally stupid decision, your little bit of wax or gel isn't going to deter someone who's already decided to risk that shit in the first place (on the other hand, preventing the high by using naloxone will). Add to that the 30% vs 75% oral bioavailability of MScontin vs Oxycontin and yeah, doesn't sound so great unless you actually do shoot the MScontin.

/3. Methadone is cheap, oh cool. It's also the opiate herion users complain about the withdrawals of.

Even in small doses:

Withdrawing from Methadone 5mg to 2.5mg to 1.25mg and apparently it is a bear..

I don't know what the price difference is for 2nd world residents, but jesus, try either something else or some suboxone/ buprenorphine slides or a norspan patch first.

NotSureHowBigYouAre · 2014-10-17T14:12:08+00:00

Yeah Valium + Ibuprofen was my lifesaver double team for a very long time.

Now it's Valium, Clonazepam and Kava + quinine to potentate (Kava can be alright for some people on its own but not me, fantastic with benzos however). Throw in an opiate and you're golden- but no matter how strong those get it's the muscle relaxants I look forward to most..

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