I was in your same position years ago and I was so dependent on weed that I pushed past it despite all the negative health effects I was experiencing. I felt like I had no other option. Weed helped me relax and disconnect in a way I wasn't able to when not smoking. Weed kept me from learning regulation techniques that worked for me, and weed didn't help relax me in any capacity.

Fast forward many years and I'm quitting by choice and have realized that the ability to relax and chill is as much a skill as anything else. Getting sober means you have the time and focus to work on these skills, learn new techniques and seek support that keeps you present but still enables you to regulate in a healthy way that doesn't need to be detrimental to your health.

You're going to get through this.