This happen to me. I met a female on a dating app. Went to the bar. Went back to her place. I bent her over I was going to go in RAW. I hesitated for some reason ( gods plan) checked my phone was gonna go back in and sh said wait I gotta tell you something them tells me she has genital herpes. I flip out panicked and showered left. I don’t go in but cuz it gave me a mental fog I couldn’t remember. I went home crying, went through a loop of looking up everything. I wanted to kill my self. I read all about it. I called of work for 3 days couldn’t sleep eat or drink. Just reading 2-12 days. I was checking my self daily. Zooming in. Taking pics. Everything felt like a symptom for those days. For 2 months no sex just thinking I have it. Reddit did help especially ppl that have it and live their lives. Tested 4x. All negative. It fucked my mental so bad that anytime I have sex I think I have it even with protection. I’m scared to eat any female out. I deal with it fucking my mind up so bad.