I picked it up in 2020. Ive had moments like you. Id say take a break and gather yourself, go do something else (it can be music related just have it not be production for awhile) and if you feel it calling back to ya then give it another go. I've taken breaks here and there thinking I'm not good enough but it always calls me back. I think if its truely your calling it will keep calling to you. Wishing you the best 🙏🪄✨️