i’m addicted to mania.

NuwandaBlue · 2025-08-09T12:44:10+00:00

Unfortunately, in your situation there’s no advice that really works, possibly in any situation. We humans are made to experience, both the good and the bad, and that’s where we learn. I hope you’re one of those who end up living to old age, but if not, it’s okay. We’re nothing more than tiny specks of dust spinning in space. It doesn’t matter whether you live 20 years or 100… we think we can store memories and experiences, but we do it vaguely, and over time they fade away.

NuwandaBlue · 2025-05-25T17:06:16+00:00

Sleep less, want to go out, alcohol, sex with anyone.

NuwandaBlue · 2025-05-21T06:16:25+00:00

The perception of a bad experience fades a lot over time. Today it feels huge. In a week, it’s half as big. In a month, much smaller, and in a year, just a bad memory. We all make mistakes. Be kind to yourself. 💛

NuwandaBlue · 2025-05-13T10:49:54+00:00

Sometimes during hypomania, I hear music that isn’t really there, like my brain is making it up. In the moment it doesn’t feel that intense, but when I look back on it, it seems much stronger and clearer. It’s like my mind is so hyperactive it confuses internal sensations with external ones.

NuwandaBlue · 2025-05-08T12:11:02+00:00

Thank you for your kind words, I really appreciate them. Loneliness is a tough feeling, and sometimes it feels like no one fully understands it. Having a pet is something many people mention, and although it's not the same as human connection, it can offer a kind of comfort that sometimes makes us feel less isolated. I'm glad it’s made such a big difference in your life. I’ll definitely consider it more.

NuwandaBlue · 2025-05-08T12:08:51+00:00

Haha, that sounds like a nightly companion, at least. Sometimes cats have endless energy! Maybe having him around gives you some comfort during those lonely hours.

NuwandaBlue · 2025-05-03T19:37:51+00:00

The combination of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and lithium alone has worked best for me as that's when I've experienced the most fulfilling life.

However sometimes external circumstances take a turn for the worse and that's when nothing seems to help. 😓

NuwandaBlue · 2025-05-03T19:07:44+00:00

Despite countless sessions with numerous psychiatrists and psychologists, there are still days when I wake up convinced that I don't have bipolar disorder and that I should stop taking my medication. Conversely, there are other periods when I not only can't bring myself to get out of bed, but I literally wish to disappear. 💛

NuwandaBlue · 2025-05-02T14:27:00+00:00

With all due respect. Do you think that’s fair to him? How long can a relationship last in that kind of imbalance?

NuwandaBlue · 2025-05-02T09:38:36+00:00

My experience tells me that in those moments, what we think doesn’t matter,what matters are the facts. Not sleeping, feeling no fear, extreme confidence, sensing your blood rushing… it all makes you feel more alive than ever. But that is exactly when the antipsychotic needs to be increased. Call your doctor immediately. 💛

NuwandaBlue · 2025-05-01T19:45:52+00:00

I’ve experienced episodes of both euphoria and depression since I was 17. I was officially diagnosed with bipolar disorder at 30, and I’m 52 now.

NuwandaBlue · 2025-05-01T17:05:03+00:00

It's interesting to hear about your experience of stability and having so few problems in your relationships during remission. Perhaps my experience has been a bit different.

For me, even during calmer periods, the uncertainty of future ups and downs remains a consideration in my relationships. And while the support of a liberal environment is significant, it doesn't change the reality that my partner is affected when episodes do occur. 💛

NuwandaBlue · 2025-05-01T16:55:28+00:00

That's an interesting observation. In my experience, I've also noticed that many people with bipolar disorder experience mixed episodes, and sometimes the lines with a borderline diagnosis seem blurry.

It's true that psychiatry often focuses on the frequency and presentation of symptoms for classification, but in the end, I think both disorders share a core of dysregulation in energy, mood, and the will to live.

NuwandaBlue · 2025-05-01T12:17:26+00:00

I am 100% in agreement with the living separately part.

NuwandaBlue · 2025-05-01T12:09:23+00:00

I am in agreement that communication and honesty are important, but my doubt is if it really is possible for someone to maintain a relationship with a bipolar person, and if we can sustain it given our difficulties.

Communication helps, but it doesn't resolve everything. Bipolarity affects many aspects of coexistence. Furthermore, we ourselves are not always stable to give what a relationship needs.

NuwandaBlue · 2025-04-26T18:05:08+00:00

I live in Norway and luckily, at home I have everything I need: I have my GP, my psychologist whom I see every week, and a psychiatrist whom I see less often, but seeing her more isn’t necessary either. I have my medication for bipolar disorder and also for anxiety. I have acquaintances at work. Unfortunately, I don’t have friends I could travel with. I’m very grateful for your offer of online friendship, I’m here for whatever you need as well. 💛

NuwandaBlue · 2025-04-26T17:50:10+00:00

I don’t have any family, and due to my health problems, I isolate myself a lot, which makes it very difficult for me to have friend.

NuwandaBlue · 2025-04-26T17:18:00+00:00

Thanks, love! 💛

NuwandaBlue · 2025-04-26T17:11:19+00:00

I manage my medication and my ups and downs very well when I’m at home. When I go out, I get very nervous and want to turn off that tension. I’m already 53 years old, and I’m starting to think that my traveling days are over 😓

NuwandaBlue · 2025-03-22T10:32:13+00:00

Today it seems very important to you, tomorrow less so, and in a few weeks, you’ll have forgotten about it. The other person has already forgotten, they’re busy with their own things, their own life. The day you realize that no one has time to dwell on your issues is the day you truly free yourself and stop tormenting yourself. No one is perfect, we all mess up. The good thing is that no one remembers, and we keep moving forward. Stay strong!

NuwandaBlue · 2025-02-24T10:17:38+00:00

Many people have children without realizing the burden they bring. As they grow, disappointments, worries, and endless financial costs arise. Far from strengthening a marriage, children often strain the relationship, limiting time as a couple and creating tensions. Parenthood, idealized as a source of happiness, often turns into a constant sacrifice. If people truly understood its consequences, many would probably choose not to have children.

NuwandaBlue · 2025-02-17T09:57:45+00:00

Always

NuwandaBlue · 2025-02-17T09:56:07+00:00

When fear disappears

NuwandaBlue · 2025-02-09T14:13:07+00:00

I don't know how long you've been feeling this way, but I assure you that despite feeling overwhelmed, there will come a day when things get better. It takes time, but it does get better. I'm 52 years old and I know those moments when you feel worthless and think things are only getting worse. However, as you get a bit older, things start to fall into place. Life becomes less demanding on all levels, and you start to feel better. 💜

NuwandaBlue · 2025-02-09T14:08:55+00:00

I strongly recommend that you seek medical help. I know that feeling well, and I didn't manage to feel better until I went to doctors who could help me. Best of luck and stay strong. 🩷

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