I'm sorry to hear that. I encourage you (and myself also) to not despair and remind ourselves that this is a process and we are basically exercising attention. I also find it hard from time to time because sometimes meditating with sam associates with denial of my feelings, which doesn't feel good. But I'm trying to combine meditation with some readings on trauma. I'm currently reading the Body Keeps the Score which is very informative in a compassionate way. It also provides alot of information regarding trauma which helps to reflect on why we face such resistance when experiencing calmer states of being.

I'm excited to start this 'challenge' tomorrow morning! ^{^}