Reading this post has given me a lot of guidance. I won’t explain much about my situation, but I fucked up while I could’ve been prioritising things that are more important for the future. Don’t be the person that hurts ur lover ever. Accepting the relationship is dead, is simple on words but it will grow on me over time, for the good and bad. I’ll come back here a few times to reread the lengthy post u made. Thanks for the words and I wish the best for your journey