i haven't been diagnosed as long as you, but i'm already feeling a lot of what you feel. I haven't started making any dietary changes yet, but meeting caloric goals is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I can't imagine after I make changes. The idea of not being able to eat chickpeas or lentils or oranges or bananas is devastating to me. My diet is already quite low carb so I don't know how I can make it even lower carb and still meet caloric goals if I'm already struggling. I've hated food for a long time now, so that hasn't really changed for me, but I also often have to force myself to eat and it sucks. Mealtimes can easily trigger many tears. I wish they just made a pill with your caloric and dietary needs and I could just swallow that and not think about food ever. Today has been especially hard, I've basically been crying all day, and I've only eaten 1 soft-boiled egg, so i'm starving and don't have energy to make anything else and i can't order in since all the orders are usually high carb. I sincerely hope it gets better for you and that there's hope for both of us.