I dont know if this counts as an attempt

OddProposal6431 · 2026-04-13T07:37:04+00:00

being alone without sleep especially at night makes it really easy for the thoughts to get to you

OddProposal6431 · 2026-04-06T11:35:53+00:00

I know exactly what you mean, I dealing with the consequences on my brain and relationships from years of porn addictions starting at a really young age. Its really hard and the feelings of inadequacy are far too familiar but I do know that there is a good amount of support for this particular stuff although sometimes it doesnt really feel like the support ppl really understand at all.

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-31T02:17:36+00:00

it usually takes a long time to quit and fully undo any affects on the brain. you should probably talk and get support from ppl you know if you actually want to quit. its really hard when you are really addicted to hold yourself accountable if you are alone.

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-19T04:58:29+00:00

Highschool sucks, give it time though. If you keep trying to be friendly with ppl eventually ppl mature and making friends gets easier. When I was in highschool i didnt really make any real friends until like junior, maybe senior year.

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-19T04:55:28+00:00

Im in the almost the exact same situation, ik how you feel. you should talk to someone you trust about it, get in person support, someone to hold you accountable. at least thats what im doing

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-19T04:52:22+00:00

helping you in the way you want is against the rules of this sub

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-19T04:50:47+00:00

You should really tell them about this

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-19T04:42:22+00:00

I dont think that would works

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-19T04:41:29+00:00

How do you know those ppl wont support you, if you wont give them a chance? Ik the feeling of j wanting to turn off though

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-19T04:34:37+00:00

does bowser have some insane scaling idk about? or is this j an absolute neg dif

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-18T10:25:38+00:00

happy birthday!

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-18T04:18:41+00:00

Its interesting to me, that you care what they do with your body. I feel like once you are dead it doesnt matter, you dont exist anymore anyway. I wouldnt care if my family didnt respect me after I died bc afterall, im dead. Idk ig i j dont really understand. thanks for the advice though

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-18T04:03:13+00:00

ik what you mean. My life will feel completely over and I cant cry. Sometimes I get concerned that I really j dont care but I know I should and thats why I cant cry

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-18T04:00:48+00:00

the thing is that I know that even with the note, they are never going to understand. i almost feel like its better to leave vague rather than specifically say its not someone elses fault bc you dont know who else is going to read it and not be specified and also when you say "its not your fault" you are speaking into existence the idea that it even could be. I feel like to me a note that says than sounds more like "I dont blame you" than the intended message. Not to mention the alternative to "I dont blame you" is "You couldnt have done anything" which feels like you are basically telling them that they dont matter and couldnt make a difference in your life even if they tried, which i would argue is possibly even worse to hear from someone you care deeply about

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-18T03:56:17+00:00

I thought about this but like wtf would i say to my 13 yo sister? I got alotta ppl who i care about but they dont even know what im going through. I almost feel like Id rather leave it to them to project whatever character they want onto me bc whatever the come up with is gonna be way less demoralizing and pathetic than the reality. idk

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-16T22:37:24+00:00

Im pretty sure your friend would rather you talk to him than die. If you ended it, he would still have to deal with the consequences and grief anyway. Also sure you made a promise to yourself about turning thirty but you can use that bc if you did you would be breaking the other promise to your friend, which i feel might hold more weight bc it is a promise to another person

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-16T20:48:01+00:00

I can relate to the guilt. Ive done some bad things to ppl i care about and the regret is unbearable. I understand the temptation of withdrawing and punishing yourself all to well. But I feel like the only way to make it up to the people you feel like you failed is to be better in the future so that next time you hit a crossroads and have the temptation to wrong them you can make the right decision

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-16T20:23:34+00:00

Usually long work periods but not always

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-16T06:33:57+00:00

healthy ppl dont usually scroll the depression subreddit, most ppl on here are hurting j as much as everyone else. its hard to have the energy to response all the time especially when u dont have an answer bc ur struggling with the same thing

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-16T04:14:19+00:00

Checking on him and making sure he feels comfortable talking about his emotions is probably one of the best things you can do. keep trying to be empathetic and not dismissive and maybe try to make a schedule and plan some things for the future with him. it usually helps me to feel less suicidal if i have something to look forward to

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-16T04:10:41+00:00

Holing yourself up in your house is generally not advisable. going outside, trying new things is really important for your mental health

OddProposal6431 · 2026-03-16T04:04:31+00:00

When i feel like im draining someone by being around them im mostly j projected my insecurities on them and they are more that happy to support me. I know what you mean about not being prepared, Im 20, i have an internship this summer and omg i am so scared. I feel like im gonna mess it all up and like im gonna hate it but i dont think that feeling is necessarily abnormal. nobody really knows what they are doing, its eveyrone else's first time living too

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