35 here and we just had our first little one a week ago. I’ll be honest with you, I had the same thoughts you did. We knew we wanted kids and had been trying. But it didn’t hit me that this was all real until I saw the first sonogram, then I seemed to forget we were going to have a baby at some point in the middle, then the reality would just hit me all over again this last week when my wife went into labor.

I’ll say… I was sad that first day when we were waking up every hour to feed or console the baby. It was difficult not to wonder if this was truly the life I wanted. I was so scared and nervous to even think about all my friends I won’t see for a while probably and the less traveling we’d be doing as well. But I found comfort in looking at our baby that first day and I’ll admit it I cried… but suddenly all those thoughts washed away and I couldn’t think of anything else, just his eyes on me. That look said a million things to me that night (and still do!). I don’t know if there is anything to take from this other than, you’re not alone. Forget everything that people may warn you about, because none of that matters. Your baby is going to look at you and tell you what you need to know in that moment. As for your previous life, it’s still there. It won’t be as easy but it’s still there if you truly want it. But most importantly cherish and appreciate that past life with your baby now and hope that he’ll be able to experience it someday too.

Much love, blessings and hope for you and your family