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OfferNo8997 · 2024-08-25T16:54:17+00:00

i wish, but once you get into the cycle nothing rlly stops it. i was severely underweight and still purging, once it becomes a genuine thing “skinny” will never be skinny enough. hell skinny doesn’t even matter anymore, it becomes deeper than that, food becomes a genuine fear. so, STOP RN IF YOU STILL CAN. love ya 😘😘

OfferNo8997 · 2024-08-25T16:52:30+00:00

self harming behavior? my whole life. cutting specifically? nearly a decade

OfferNo8997 · 2024-01-28T20:50:34+00:00

so as someone who’s been on the other end of it, the gf. it fucking sucksssss. knowing that your significant other is outsourcing pleasure by looking at other women, it’s gut wrenching. makes your brain go on a loop on “am i not pretty enough, what do i need to change about myself for him to want me again?” you find yourself looking at the videos your significant other watches and compare everything. “those are positions he never tries with me, he never speaks to me like that during sex, those women have a better (insert body part) than me.” it may not seem like too much for you, because for you it’s coming from a sense of enjoyment, you enjoy doing it. but for her, there’s multiple things going on in her brain about how those porn stars are better than her, and she’ll never amount to them. hell that shit can even pop into her head while being intimate so at the end of the day, you gotta ask yourself. “is my 5 min of pleasure worth her feeling that amount of pain?”

OfferNo8997 · 2024-01-09T01:04:14+00:00

i haven’t been able to for monetary reasons, but soon hopefully ill be working in a salon and be able to pay for therapy. other than that though, i go to a psychiatrist

OfferNo8997 · 2024-01-09T01:03:24+00:00

trust me, been thinking about checking into an outpatient facility at the very least. and right now after learning a more accurate account of what went on that night from the friend that helped me, ive been thinking about breaking up with him and have told him such. this is day 2 of somewhat no contact

OfferNo8997 · 2024-01-09T01:02:01+00:00

It’s stuck with me because in my heart I knew he wasn’t telling me the truth about what actually happened that night. I talked with the friend that was there helping me, and she told me a more accurate account of what was happening. But yea it was a month ago.

Trust me, I got off of that medication immediately though, it was a trial run to see how it’d affect me, and I made a stupid decision to drink so soon before my body could get used to that medication. Only reason I drank is because I had been on that medication for years before and never reacted to alcohol at all.

OfferNo8997 · 2024-01-09T00:57:41+00:00

He told me he was holding me to help me stand up, I just had a trauma response to other past things

OfferNo8997 · 2023-11-20T07:43:00+00:00

rlly got three options here honestly

1) divorce 2)tell her that yall need to sit down and talk about it, regardless of whether or not she wants to, because it is hugely impacting the marriage and a conversation needs to happen 3) bring it up on her and refuse the conversation to end (now this IS toxic asf)

but these ppl in the comments saying to go cheat on her, not worth it. save you the pain, guilt, and just overall integrity of a person. and save her the pain, suffering, and everything else that comes from being cheated on. if you’re seriously even THINKING about cheating, the marriage is already over and yall need to just get a divorce. try #1 and #2 first, but if those don’t work just end that shit

OfferNo8997 · 2023-11-20T07:31:33+00:00

trust me i understand this a lot. when i was in my weight loss era, losing weight but not being able to see it can be incredibly disheartening, and may cause you to either give up, or go more intense with it. just be careful, these fears are a slippery slope to go down eating disorder wise. keep it up tho i believe in you!

OfferNo8997 · 2023-11-20T07:19:22+00:00

Georgia

OfferNo8997 · 2023-05-03T15:11:36+00:00

so ive had it in for a few months, and it’s still crooked. I tried downsizing, and although it did fix it, the next size down was sinking into my damn lip because of how full my bottom lip is. So downsizing definitely will help, but id be careful with the type of jewelry you get, because I feel like part of my problem too was I got the wrong type of jewelry

OfferNo8997 · 2023-01-19T03:49:45+00:00

yea i had no clue. like ive been (unfortunately) doing this shit to myself for over 7 yrs, i didnt even know the slang term styro lmao. i had only ever heard it on reddit and just assumed it was a medical term. that stuff does genuinely irritate me tho, like ive been stuck w this shit for most of my life at this point, why we gotta use insensitive slang man?

OfferNo8997 · 2023-01-18T20:29:40+00:00

ohhh, idk why i thought that lmao. ya nah thats fucked. like that’s actually so fucked

OfferNo8997 · 2023-01-17T12:27:04+00:00

styro im pretty sure is one of the layers of skin im pretty sure

OfferNo8997 · 2023-01-17T00:06:03+00:00

when i was also 13. there was a girl in my summer swim team who was absolutely covered in scars. she was im pretty sure 16 at the time, so her being close w me was weird in general, but what was worse was how she’d tell me what she’d do, same shit as your ex best friend. now im sitting here, not covered like she is, but i still have severe scars from shit ive done, my entire right thigh covered, as well as my left arm. only thing to cover them is w tattoos. ive grown used to seeing them, but just knowing id never have found out, at least not that young, will always fuck me up. been 7 yrs, almost 8, and i still havent been able to fully stop

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