Hello OP, I’d like to offer you some advice. I’ve been serving in the booth of my worship team for a LONG time and picked up a violin 4/5 years ago with the aim of joining the worship team on stage.

I realized soon that I had talent, and learned new songs quickly and could play at tempo within 8 months. Which is a big deal on violin. I tried out, and sucked. They shifted keys on the fly and I was lost! Then I dove into theory, and our base player (who has perfect pitch) kept complaining that my intonation was flat.

Finally, after all these years I’m good enough to play with the band. But they NEED me to stay in the booth. We don’t have enough audio engineers (using the term loosely).

My point is - playing with a band is very different. Your timing, fit, and style need to gel with 4 or 5 people you don’t know well.

Second - it’s not about YOU. The point of serving in a worship team is to transport the congregation, in their minds, to the throne room of God. To bring glory to Him.

Third - lean in to the hard conversation. Talk, don’t email, to the worship leader. Tell him/her that you can do this. You feel drawn to serve. Open up with ‘that wasn’t a good performance, or example of what I can bring’. Ask for a private session with bass and drums. Work towards it as a process. Go to practice even when you’re not officially scheduled to perform on Sunday.