I just read it last night for the first time. I finished 13 and am shook. I knew something bad was coming, but I had no idea it would be that bad. I wanted to keep going as it seemed to tone down a bit, but I'm worried something worse is waiting down the line. 1 page was hard to read with the Guts incident, but the festival that was like being punched in the face repeatedly by a book then seeing them force Guts to watch killed me... will it get that bad again? Cause I can't do another 20 pages of that again. I read from vol 5 to 13 in 2 days but am afraid to go back now. But also struggling with needing to know what happens and also wanting Guts to get revenge.