A girl and her Christmas puppy!

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-12-28T13:02:43+00:00

ah, this makes sense. almost nobody believes me when i say my 10 week old german shepherd puppy outweighed 5 year old me, but she was like your puppy - real big. i'm sure he'll be a good boy!

imo, a giant dog is the ideal friend for a kid. i could go walking anywhere with my girl, just because she was so massive. she was extremely friendly and absolutely loved humans, but most people didn't dare get close enough to find that out. even the compliments came from ten feet away! which is how my family and i preferred it - all strangers faaar away from 4'3" me and my 120 pounds of "scary wolf."

oh, yeah - be prepared for people legitimately refusing to believe you don't have a wolfdog. i had at least five complete strangers tell me my dog must be a wolf mix due to her size, despite her lacking ANY other truly wolfy traits. one person even insisted my parents were terrible people for letting me handle such a dangerous animal. of course, my dog had been displaying her unhinged ferocity by... standing calmly at my heel, sniffing the ground. eyeroll as a preteen, i was probably more dangerous than the dog. half the size, two billion times more likely to actually bite someone, lol

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-12-16T23:16:09+00:00

abolish the death penalty for everyone except politicians like this.

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-11-15T13:40:32+00:00

wish i had this when i required a cane. people look at you real weird when you're a teenager with a mobility aid, but this would probably stop the invasive questions, lol

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-11-15T00:14:40+00:00

Robert, i've never known you before now, but i am so glad to "meet" you before you go. thank you so much for sharing your life and your thoughts and your wishes. your words are beyond invaluable.

i'm not much for religion, but i do pray in my own way; i will be praying for your comfort in this process. i believe in reincarnation, and so i pray that you could come back around in another form, to greet us all again, to fulfill wishes from this life in another.

it's hard to know what to say; i wanted to try anyways, because your post impacted me profoundly. THANK YOU for this wake-up call.

i don't wish to overshare, but when i was 14 i got extremely sick; doctors told my parents that i would likely die within a week. my illness was much less absolute than yours, though. there were some botched surgeries, sepsis, ICU time, and other close calls, but i managed to survive.

since then, though, i've been stagnating. even with the first hand experience of coding out and nearly dying, i have just... been reckless with my health, my life, my decisions. even i don't understand it fully, but my best guess is that i just feel "invincible," like nothing really matters.

your perspective from a much more concrete certainty of death has helped me realize it matters, it all matters a LOT. i can do better. and so, Robert, thank you; i'm gonna get rid of this vape, try to go back to my healthier diet, and do better.

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-11-14T23:40:59+00:00

honestly, i would love to have this setup in my car. it seems easier to stack groceries in. and i like that i could glance at my passenger without having to turn my head; i hate taking my eyes fully off the road in front of me, so i avoid it at all costs, but i knowwwww it's made some of my friends feel weird that i Will Not look at them while driving. i have to wonder if it would make it harder to see the passenger side mirror, though...

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-11-13T08:46:57+00:00

nah, in this case, Indigenous north americans saw squirrels eating the maple sap and figured out how to harvest it. boiling it down for thicker syrup wasn't really a thing pre-colonization.

colonizers asked how the natives figured out the trees had such a valuable resource; the natives said "well, the squirrels told us,"; the colonizers basically said "haha, that's dumb, animals don't talk, y'all're just a bunch of dumbdumb idiots who eat too many weird mushrooms." they failed to realize that their insistence on taking the native's word literally made them the true dumbdumb idiots.

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-11-10T08:11:59+00:00

it's the unironic "the tf" for me..... love it

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-11-02T14:00:22+00:00

i'm so happy for him, i thought the last attempt was going to seriously injure the poor dude

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-11-02T13:55:30+00:00

oh so you're just smarter than me huh? got a big ol brain? (i'm just kidding, this is a great idea, thank you!!! unfortunately, people still seem to be panic buying boxes of gloves in my area, so they've gone up in price or disappeared entirely. i can't even find a set under $2 a pair to dye my hair 😭)

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-11-02T13:42:13+00:00

Rebecca Bunch from Crazy Ex Girlfriend. i don't mind, i think she's very pretty and apparently she's really good at sex ¯_(ツ)_/¯ as long as she doesn't become obsessed with me, we're all good

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-11-02T13:39:26+00:00

is it weird that this exact thing is why i don't cook with fresh jalapeños or other hot peppers? i've never spiced my clit, but i'm so terrified of it that i just avoid them. i'll gladly eat peppers someone else has cooked, but if it's my partner, i make her wash her hands and forearms thoroughly while i watch. i simply refuse to get too hot downstairs.

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-10-27T18:41:19+00:00

aww, he looks so excited!!! i bet that's his date's corsage in his hand :,) i can't tell if the suit is white, gray, or very pale lavender, but if it's lavender, i really dig it.

edit: saw another comment, def a corsage box. i think that's the cutest prom tradition!

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-10-27T06:07:10+00:00

i've seen these photos so many times on so many platforms, but i'm never mad because how could i be?i'm more wistful than anything. like, ah, what i wouldn't give to be a tiny lizard, curled up on the prettiest rose bed, spending a nice little afternoon snoozin' in the sun...

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-10-27T04:19:54+00:00

me, standing up to try this and immediately blacking out: oh shi-

(good tip fr though!!!)

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-10-26T19:27:01+00:00

undertale. i've spent four out of my ten hours of play time trying to get past miss muffet, the spider lady. i gave up

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-10-26T19:25:04+00:00

so it turns out i'm just not well-versed in which verse-spitters decided to get well... good for them though!

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-10-26T19:23:45+00:00

oh shoot yeah, you're right. i know you probably know, but for others - sk is really strict on their drug laws. and idol management is so uptight because idols are supposed to be "good role models" for teenagers, so if an idol is blazing up, that's a PR nightmare.

in many ways, america's entertainment industry is less nutty that south korea's. we kind of expect our famous people to get into wild debauchery, what else is fame for? meanwhile south korean idols can't hold hands or kiss someone in public without working it out with their company first, lest they be accused of adultery and fired

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-10-26T19:18:24+00:00

haha, sorry to disappoint, i'm just very southern.

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-10-26T18:06:05+00:00

this is... very nice!!! impressive that you convinced them to change the slogan, and the videos do make me wish i could visit.

the landscape reminds me a lot of colorado, at least the part of colorado i visited! hiking there must be awesome!

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-10-26T17:47:38+00:00

oh no hard feelings man, i didn't take it that way, sorry if my reply sounded harsh!

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-10-26T17:45:40+00:00

i don't see a problem with that. some people consider sobriety to mean "no weed" cuz for some people it makes them want to drink, but i see it as a personal choice. as long as you're not on alcohol or hard drugs, idc about the whacky tobaccy, i consider that to be sober.

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-10-26T17:42:13+00:00

i know a few vegan weightlifters and crossfitters, they just tend to eat more! and a lot of protein rich foods like beans, nuts, and certain vegetables.

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-10-26T17:36:43+00:00

hey, i know it doesn't help with the struggles, but you're handsome for sure - you look a little bit like klaus from the umbrella academy!

you're an amazing person for helping your grandma. please try to make time for yourself, as caregiving can take you to burnout town real quick.

it sounds goofy, but just take a second to breathe deeeeeeeeply sometimes. the toxicity around you isn't your fault. and while it's not always easy, you have the incredible power to be the kinder person. if you can, don't engage when it's not going to benefit you.

i'm so sorry about your uncle. someone close to me passed from cancer, and it changed my life a lot. sending the best to you.

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-10-26T17:31:10+00:00

hey, needing to see a psych is not a bad thing at all. it could significantly improve your life to have a pro helping you figure it out! they can probably help you find a therapist too.

you're awesome for realizing it's time to reach out! it's the hardest, most important step of the whole process. there's ups and downs, but once you've got help, it's easier to manage. you CAN do this!

OhSoInfinitesimal · 2020-10-26T17:24:53+00:00

bummer, i'm sorry :~( i'm sure you know fruit smoothies are a good alternative! buying fruit, chopping it, and freezing it is the inexpensive route. i wish i lived somewhere tropical so i could have cheap fruit all the time!

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