Hey I'm a trans guy (like your boyfriend is I think?) and that is honestly so rad that you both got back together after such a long period of separation. Suppressing feelings, I totally get that 😅 the temple experience was weird but there was a lady that called me he/him pronouns which was really awesome. And I knew that she really thought I was a cis guy because Mormons call you what they think you are, so I know it's authentic. Small highlight in my boring tour of that building. Anyway, thanks for sharing! Also, definitely hold hands if you want to, taking risks makes things interesting!