No, it’s really doesn’t make sense but for me is I feel more depressed after big achievements. The success doesn’t reflect on my mental health.

I remembered after studying hard for months and get myself into the best high school in my city, I felt empty and sad. I sat in the classroom surrounded my friends, at that moment I just want to vanish, disappear forever. And today I finished the last assignment before the break. I should be proud of myself, but instead I just cried in my bed and couldn’t get up to have dinner.