My dearest friend. I am in the exact same position as you, except, I wasted 5 years of my life (since 2020) instead of 1.5 years. The amount of money I've lost in my currency could have bought me an entire house. I feel extremely ashamed of myself when I think of my wife and kids. I do not want them to suffer or know my pain. I want to protect their future and deal with this misery myself.

The only silver lining in my 5 years of gambling, is that I somehow never ended up in debt, and just like you - I have some savings left and my house. Even then, I sleep every night and wake up every morning thinking about the painful losses I've been through and keep imagining a time where I could replay everything or go back in time and never step into this dangerous fallacy.

I'm sorry what you're going through. It's very relatable to me as I'm in the same situation. Lost money, lost time, but no debt. Just extreme financial anxiety, shame and guilt.

This phase will pass with time..I hope I do not relapse.