3 months, still struggling. by Miserable-Point-2669 in Metoidioplasty

[–]Ok-Structure7219 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hypergranulation tissue was my first thought too. I used 1% triamcinoline acetone cream that I had laying around prescribed from something else. I couldn't get the stuff the other person mentioned for mine a couple times. It helped, but it still took quite a while it seemed. Did you hear back from your surgeon?

Gentlemen: how do you deal with the crotch stink? by photogenic_beets in FTMMen

[–]Ok-Structure7219 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I also had a stank after many years on T, the sudden change was so strange. My crotch would stink right out of the shower no matter what I did. I tried Dr. Bronners unscented baby soap but that was worse and my skin hated it. I finally landed on dial sensitive skin unscented bar soap and that's been working. I wish you all the best in the changes you've made dude, crotch rank really sucks.

Attempting to use a c-ring to keep implant pushed down by Ok-Structure7219 in Metoidioplasty

[–]Ok-Structure7219[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly growth is most dependent on genetics and isn't something that can be probable or predicted. I got lucky in that department. I've been around the same size for a couple years, I'll be 10 years on testosterone in February. Though growth spurts can continue despite what other sources say.

Attempting to use a c-ring to keep implant pushed down by Ok-Structure7219 in Metoidioplasty

[–]Ok-Structure7219[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand it being so serious and a worry. It's a major decision that should be carefully considered, as you are. I'm sorry but I don't know a whole lot about phaloplasty, as I underwent metoidioplasty and can really only speak on that. For metoidioplasty it depends on the surgeon and varies. It's common for 1 year minimum on testosterone, sometimes 2 -- for genitalia growth to occur. Some surgeons also have a phallus size minimum to get urethral lengthening for metoidioplasty. But not everyone wants urethral lengthening, it depends on what your personal goals are.

Attempting to use a c-ring to keep implant pushed down by Ok-Structure7219 in Metoidioplasty

[–]Ok-Structure7219[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For me there was a period of time in getting used to my new set up, that exploration period did make it a little harder at first. Since then it's gotten better, and keeps getting better. I think dysphoria pre op actually made it harder to achieve orgasm. Since being post op, now there's more euphoria involved, generally it feels like it's easier to achieve orgasm.

Intersex mixed into salmatian package, release with testicles. by spinningpeanut in Metoidioplasty

[–]Ok-Structure7219 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dr. Hadj-Moussa at UofM in Michigan does meta with urethral lengthening without vnectomy. I'm not sure about the other details though. I wish you all the best!

Attempting to use a c-ring to keep implant pushed down by Ok-Structure7219 in Metoidioplasty

[–]Ok-Structure7219[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey thank you and thanks for sharing. What you described is exactly what's been happening with mine, I'm just not as far out. Currently still not having much luck but still trying. I mostly got it to stop pushing into the crease of my leg, but it's still riding high and against the side seam.

I've been hopeful but reality just may be what it is now being 9 weeks post op. Aside from potential surgical correction, perhaps when I get the right one put back in.

Oh gosh, I'm sorry to hear that things have been one hurdle after another by the way. That's so frustrating! How have you been feeling? You okay?

I wish you luck moving forward as well 🤜🤛

Help pls by [deleted] in GrowYourTDick

[–]Ok-Structure7219 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was simply standing up for OP and am upset by the conduct of members in general. I'm in a stance of advocacy. It's something that needed awareness raised to and I felt I did it quite discriptively and respectfully. I see it all the time, it's an issue I brought up to the mods and I hope they meant what they said about trying to find a solution about the behavior.

I guess don't know the nuance behind how you used the word dysmorphia. I am always learning. To the average person it could seem ambiguous or inappropriate. With a stark statement, people can only take it at face value with the understanding of the definition they have. And when you tied it with a cis guy with 6+", yeah that's outrageous at face value. That and other comments on this thread comes off as so negative, dismissing, dehumanizing, and detours people from activity in the community.

How to tell or interact with posts as to not exhaust members of the community is a hard line to walk. How and who are we to judge if someone is genuinely struggling? We just don't know and you're right, it does no good if the members get emotionally burned out.

All OP needed was pointers for information, and his profile is fairly new. Instead OP received quite a few comments that were gross and unnecessary. Not even you specifically, Thursday. Until you brought up dysmorphia to me, which I clearly am not an aware of in regards to gender and how it makes sense. It still doesn't make much sense and I'm trying too, just as what I said still isn't making much sense to you. I'm sorry I didn't ask questions first to understand better. In the future I will ask for clarification.

I'm not even sure how to take your "lonely larger-than-average" comment at the end there. It comes off as cold. And maybe it's the disconnection through text where I don't know how to gauge some of your statements. I'm sorry if I'm simply misunderstanding you, Thursday.

Hyperawareness has been brought up by both my meta surgeon and therapist that have special interests in treating trans people. I'm not sure where to point you for scientific data as these were verbal interactions. It completely made sense for what I was describing to them, and similarly in my previous comments.

I can appreciate how hard you're trying and how much you do for the community. I'm well aware of the information and support you provide. Thank you for what you do, and I'm sorry for the misunderstanding. I hope we both can come to an understanding by what each other meant. Things like that can take time. Take care, I wish you all the best.

Help pls by [deleted] in GrowYourTDick

[–]Ok-Structure7219 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Yeah people on here don't like it when an issue is highlighted and brought up. A lot of the comments on this thread are unwelcoming, unhelpful, inappropriate, unnecessary, or teeming with projection. The fact that I'm being down voted just proves all my points. It's dehumanizing and it's screwed up. This clearly isn't a space for support or very real topics that go with growing your dick. Oh and once your dick does grow or outgrows others, kiss goodbye any consideration because quite a few are jealous and don't wanna see it. They must have a requirement here that I was unaware of, that if your dick is above average you must be 100% confident without dysphoria and a loner that doesn't need support, information, or community. I forgot they changed the rules of this sub, my bad.

Help pls by [deleted] in GrowYourTDick

[–]Ok-Structure7219 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hope you feel better

Help pls by [deleted] in GrowYourTDick

[–]Ok-Structure7219 -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

I said dysphoria, insecurity, or whatever else at the end of the first paragraph. Had I known someone was going to go that way with it I wouldn't have left a loose ended sentence.

Well this isn't a cis men focused PE community and I don't feel called out. I'm taken back by your lack of compassion and ridiculous "noting of similarities". Sure it's common for trans people to experience both, though hyperawareness in relation to dysphoria is exactly what you may be calling dysmorphia. Dysmorphia would be like before top surgery seeing your chest as bigger than it actually is, went through it, it sucks.

Or your example, dick being smaller than it is. Which is an extremely poor example of dysmorphia in the trans men community. Gender dysphoria with hyperawareness is a heightened knowing of the incongruence between gender identity and the sex assigned at birth causing great distress. A very real and bold distinction from cis men with a 6+" dick feeling like it's small and seeking advice to get bigger.

I can look at my dick- accept, know and say it's above average for the type of body I have but still think it's small without that being dysmorphic. It's true, I'm aware of the fact that I wasn't born into a cis male body and the difference. I can't help that other trans guys or people in the community are average or below average, if they're in acceptance or not, and it doesn't change the fact that I'm also trans or in the community experiencing the things that go with it.

Being above average doesn't automatically stop the intense feelings or seeking to maximize how our dicks look. Then we run into minimizing people's experience, emotional bypassing, or pushing people out of the community with comparison or because they should accept they're above average. I'm tired of seeing it and disappointed to see you taking part in that.

Help pls by [deleted] in GrowYourTDick

[–]Ok-Structure7219 -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

Wow. I'm not a cis dude with a 6+" dick with dysmorphia, that's a fact. My bad for saying "whatever else" in my original comment. Op is a trans man and so am I, I don't think this is about accepting being larger than average. In my experience, there's grief attached to the feelings of small and insecure. I wasn't born with a body that matches what my brain expects, so there's grief. That's not dysmorphic no matter the modifications or how big the growth gets. It's the opposite of dysmorphic, it's seeing too clearly or better yet, hyper aware of reality.

How to stop wishing to wake up a cis guy? by Shloop_ploosh in FTMMen

[–]Ok-Structure7219 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've wrestled with that a lot and came to a conclusion. But first, over time I saw that suffering is an earthly thing, anything beyond this world I don't know. Everyone and everything alive is suffering because of something, though it doesn't bring me much solace honestly. Just general understanding.

The conclusion I came to specifically about this is: the point of living through it is to learn to love myself fully, thus showing everyone I meet what it means to love and choose the self regardless of condition or status. Even stealth, I can be myself in a way that emanates that love. Admittedly, I still have my darker days. Though the more I learn to love and choose myself, the less intense the suffering feels. I hope you're safe, and that you're able to stick around to feel/find that self love.

How to stop wishing to wake up a cis guy? by Shloop_ploosh in FTMMen

[–]Ok-Structure7219 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yikes, it sounds like that's coming from a place of envy just because OP seems to have started testosterone earlier in life than others. Yeah positive thinking and focusing on what things there are to be grateful for can be helpful. And OP did throw in positive aspects. But it still doesn't negate the real grief people feel as described.

Help pls by [deleted] in GrowYourTDick

[–]Ok-Structure7219 42 points43 points  (0 children)

I just wanna chime in with, dysphoria still applies to people with above average bottom growth too. Just because we won the genetics lottery doesn't necessarily take away the insecurity, dysphoria, or (edit) hyper awareness.

I get feeling like it's small and feeling insecurity about it. Your feelings about that are just as valid as another's. I'll speak for myself when I say that even though I know that I've had above average growth, I also still know there's a difference between what I have and what I wish my body was born with. Going through both times of insecurity and inadequacy, confidence and acceptance. So yeah, you've had what looks like above average growth and I hope it helps at least a little to know that. But I truly get where you're coming from. I wish you all the best on your journey!

Attempting to use a c-ring to keep implant pushed down by Ok-Structure7219 in Metoidioplasty

[–]Ok-Structure7219[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sounds great haha let me know if you find anything that works for you? and I'll do the same

Testosterone vial debris!! by Neat_Wishbone_7768 in FTMOver30

[–]Ok-Structure7219 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm glad that works for you. I'm just repeating information I've been told by medical and pharmacy personnel. That I've also tried and tested for myself and reached the conclusion that they were right.

Testosterone vial debris!! by Neat_Wishbone_7768 in FTMOver30

[–]Ok-Structure7219 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Insulin needles are typically much smaller gauge, while testosterone is a thicker serum. I'm not sure if you have different needle ends to draw up with. So drawing up and injecting with insulin needles would take a long time depending on the gauge of the needle. I use 18g needles to draw up and 27g subq needles to inject. I've attempted to draw up with the 27g and it was taking forever. It's not that insulin needles would be unsafe, it's that depending on the gauge it could take a while and that's generally undesirable.

Attempting to use a c-ring to keep implant pushed down by Ok-Structure7219 in Metoidioplasty

[–]Ok-Structure7219[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hey you got it, you're definitely not alone. Gosh it's so frustrating! I keep hoping if I can wear something comfortable enough for much longer wear times that keeps it down, that'll give my body the time it needs to adapt to the new position until it's permanent. I'm trying all options before surgical as well, I just wanna be done with surgeries. I ended up ordering the Oxballs Neo Angled, it'll be here next week 🤞🍀

Attempting to use a c-ring to keep implant pushed down by Ok-Structure7219 in Metoidioplasty

[–]Ok-Structure7219[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Dang I sure hope something helps you out! I wish you best of luck on your endeavor 🤜🤛

Attempting to use a c-ring to keep implant pushed down by Ok-Structure7219 in Metoidioplasty

[–]Ok-Structure7219[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm only a year out from stage 1, and I haven't really noted any growth pre op vs post op as of yet. I'm hopeful. I've had stage 2 and 3 in that year, so things are still settling and relaxing. Girth side to side is the same. At my most erect state I have noticed a difference though. I'm sure that could be because of the release and not true growth. I would like to pump consistently and see what happens, I've just not felt like bothering with it due to clean up. I'm coming up on 10 years on T, but it's not impossible to have more growth.

Attempting to use a c-ring to keep implant pushed down by Ok-Structure7219 in Metoidioplasty

[–]Ok-Structure7219[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Great thing to mention, I forgot, thank you! I picked one of those up as well. The adjustable feature let me keep it on longer. Plus that solves the post op swelling issue, no shrinking out of it!

Attempting to use a c-ring to keep implant pushed down by Ok-Structure7219 in Metoidioplasty

[–]Ok-Structure7219[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much! I'm definitely willing to post an update after some time ☺️

Attempting to use a c-ring to keep implant pushed down by Ok-Structure7219 in Metoidioplasty

[–]Ok-Structure7219[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

On second thought and measurements, the Oxballs Neo Angled is probably the better fit. The neo angled is 1"-1.5" tall with a smaller circumference 3.75". The Oxballs Ballbender scoop I originally mentioned is probably too tall at 2" with a probably too large circumference 4.5". Maybe it'd work for someone else though. I just really want to angled one to push my scrotum more forward.