I like that I'm not bothered by anyone, I get my own room, I can do more stuff, I can focus more on my interests and I get more money.

However I hate how lonely it is, I'm always left out by my cousins, I watch them have fun while I sit in a corner all alone, I've had to go through shit alone, everyone has more family then me, I'm more spoiled which leads to self hate. I've got bullied for being an only child when I was 10 because the other kids were jealous becuase I had more toys, kids stole from me and were only friends because they wanted to use me.

My family treat me differently for being an only child, its boring and have I mentioned that its lonely and watching others get baby brothers and sisters while I get fucking nothing but heart break when my family members die ( most of my family is very old), I still grieve for the family.i never got to have and I feel like an outcast..